...i lost my ATM card :( i think i either misplaced it or it fell off somewhere :( i was very upset cos i couldnt buy my necessities junow. i already picked what i needed to buy but i couldnt find the damn card :(( oh wells, i'll make a replacement card AGAIN. this is the 2nd time i lost it. Ah, the days havent been better. My parents were so busy this Ramadhan, i hardly see them during breakfasts. My dad hadta be the imam for the surau from now onwards & my parents are the OIC for the committee. & Professor Yaacob invited our family again for raya but i think i'll skip it. i miss playing with his children tho. pretty hair, gorgeous eyes. oh my. i wanna marry an angmoh too. but momo have gorgeous copperbrown eyes. i love looking into his eyes. besides being able to see my reflection that is. haha. oh wells, since my parents are busy, we children hadta wait til noon before they came back from the surau that morning of raya. I hadta prepare the little ones & the last minute cleaning up. vacuumed, mopped, rearranged the chairs & curtains & tidbits for the visitors. I didnt help out this year so to contribute to the plate, i made petit fours! my first time making it & it was a hit! so proud of myself.

So basically, short of time so i only followed for the first day of raya. To my grandma's (maternal) & my greatgrandparents (maternal). The normal like every year. 2nd day was spent outside with monster. We mugged while enjoying my first Mcd's meal for the month! i cannot believe i shed 3 kilos this month without exercising (: i had a lot of people asking me when im gonna get married. & i also had people asking which one's eldest (i was standing beside big sister. LOL).. but i had the most "alah kesian nanti exam besar" ("oh you poor thing sitting for the big exams) green packets. most of them i deposited into my account & paid my overdue bills.

that's when i lost my ATM card :( its so frustrating!
& if i have a money tree, it'd look like this:
Rose wld knw where i took this, right? yeah, i'll be plucking money from the tree everyday & over-depending so much on it that it'll just dry up & die forever :(


to syikin: sorry girl, usually we'll come on the 2nd day but our family was too bummed out. i was busy mugging too. soon! come my house kay kay? sms me the night before so that i'll stay at home (: SEE YOU SOON.

This year's colour is : BLUE
i didnt have the time & mood to shop for a new outfit this year, so thankfully Mami gave her wedding outfits to us & happens so that only i can fit in. But sent it for tailoring to lengthen the arms abit (ive got strangely long arms & legs) & sent it to the dry cleaners. So i guess today will be filled with unproductive studying. I didnt help out at all in preps for this year's Raya. I only baked one batch of cookies & helped pick up the baju rayas from the dry cleaners. I spent half the day steaming my outfits. oh man. in the middle of it, Aunty & Uncle M dropped by (they're Henna's & Bilu's previous owner) to send milk & their traditional sweets. You see, Henna, by her name is not malay (haha!). She's like Hindustan + Indian + Eurasian + i dont know what else. So every year, they'll send milk to us. Its not normal milk but its actually much nicer & fragrant. & the traditional sweets are nice too, but not my type of sweet kuehs. I brought out Henna for them to hug & pat. Aunty M was kinda sad cos Henna no longer recognise her. SHE SAID HENNA'S REALLY FAT NOW! ooops. blame it on the lack of competition from Bilu. Bilu always shove her away during meal times. Now she has 7 meals a day including snacks & treats. Talking about treats, i think i just taught Henna a trick! I taught her how to sit when i say "sit".
digress.
i had a mini heart-to-heart talk with kanthan ytd while waiting for raj & momo to buy food from Subway about our future. Kanthan wanted to be a relieve teacher after A's & suddenly we were talking about love. It was hilarious when he's serious.

Today passed pretty fast. Tuition was cancelled cos Mrs Arul hadta visit her sister-in-law. So i stayed back after school to finish my AJ paper & put it in Mdm M's pig-hole (: Here's what i learnt today:
- how to secure my investments in the future so that it's being put in "halal" organizations
- how aging & mature workers can reap benefits to the firm
- (i presented) how Singapore is losing its identity because of globalization & in which aspects is Singapore's identity still not diluted
- i learnt that i need to seek help for my summary writing skills
- i manage to take up some pointers during the GP sharing session (iBRA & TCB's skills)
- Malays are no longer regarded as Muslim Malays in our community

I'll elaborate about the last point. In fact, I'm so infuriated by my discovery that I'm ashamed of being a Malay. Well I was craving for Tempura Udon since last night so we decided to break fast at TPY. We reached TPY around just after 6 so there's around 45mins to kill before its really time to break fast. We took a seat & did our work before waiting for 6.45 to buy our food. Meanwhile, 3 Malay (i dont know they're Muslims or not) people sat behind monster came back with a plate of Chicken Rice, a bowl of some Chinese noodles & drinks. I thought it was normal for people to buy food first & wait til its time but they started digging in straight away. 2 of them are girls so i gave them the benefit of the doubt of having "holiday" but the other is a guy & besides the bandage on his hand, he looks perfectly healthy. All three of them feasted despite a Malay uncle looking on while listening to his radio. Mats & Minahs. Malays ought not to be labeled as delinquents & a disgrace to the community. They are not even respecting the holy month of Ramadhan where we practice abstinence (on food, sex & temptations etc) & bring ourselves closer to Allah. Its like, in this world today, our lives are in constant turbulence. We do not know when will we suddenly die by a bomb operated via handphones or something. I read Syidah's blog about having eyesores when she came back from Geylang Serai. My mom complained about it too. Couples hugging, holding hands & even consuming food in public in broad daylight. Have they no shame? Have they forgotten about respect? I send my deep condolences to their sense of dignity and "face-water". At times like this, i wish that MUIS would do something about it. Indeed, globalization is partly to be blamed. Teenagers do not regard religion as important to them. I use to laugh at Malaysia for setting up a unit especially for Ramadhan where plain clothes police officers are on the look out for people eating in public eateries or those eateries who actually open before 3pm. They can be fined up to RM50. I found it abit absurd to go into such extent to instill something that you have been taught since young. But in modern societies like Singapore where the government gave us most of the freedom, people abuse it.

I was really upset & disappointed on how the Malay community is handling themselves among the other races. I was browsing through STOMP & there was photos of a malay couple canoodling & gropping in public in the middle of the day, wearing school uniforms. In the first place, its the fasting month & you are to cease any physical touch with your partner/spouse etc. Even for married couples, they are advised to stay away from each other so that they wont be tempted. But these KIDS! What do they know? They know their girl/boyfriend loves them & all they want is physical touches & kisses. It was really embarrassing when i saw the first comment to that article: "they look like malays to me". Well, guess what, they sure do. typical mat (tappered pants, parrot hair, smart mamat look) & typical minah (mini short skirts, tight blouse, dyed hair, minah flair).

What has become of the Malays in Singapore?

I admit, I'm not a perfect role model of a Malay in Singapore. I cannot converse in proper sentence structure without stuttering & mentally translating. At least i know of my values & morals.
Sigh. What a world.

woah that was lewd! Its been a very very very long time since ive expressed my opinions in my blog. Usually my posts will be mundane stuffs i do, which is exactly what im gna do now!

Mundane updates:

dazzled: the number of cars from the ALL THE PRINCIPALS IN SINGAPORE cos all of them were having meeting in our school. Of all places. The parking lots are filled, all the way to the tennis courts, all the way infront of the foyer, all the way to the guard post, all the way to the dead end & all the way to the shell station. That's how many principals there are in singapore.



& of course the GP sharing session. It was hilarious especially when Mdm M asked the GP tutors if they have anything to add on to wrap it up (Mr I & Mr T had both shared a great deal of info) so Mdm L stood up & began flirting. "well you have to bear in mind that you have to address the ...blah...blah...blah"
she said competitiveness 5 times & adversity 4 times. She kept on going round & round & round. okaaaaaaaay. i get your point, maam. But i cant stop laughing.
ok nvm.

okay, so i admit. Im still admiring other people's work of arts with fondant & cupcakes :( Im dying to slip into my apron & whip up a fresh batch of cupcakes okay. SO TEMPTED! I had my online "rituals" (haha) & i googled abit & found a forum on cupcakes, which is utterly DISGUSTING. i learnt some new stuffs on the forum but i was too turned off by their disgusting use of ENGRISH & broken English.
eg. I TRIES TO MADE DOSE CUPCAKES BUT IS TAD TO SWEEEEEET BAH
oh God, have mercy on moi XD
these people who make sinful mistakes ought to be put back into primary school to attend English lessons. i wanted to contribute to the forum but i got too turned off so i just closed the tab. Please, i learnt from scratch & learning & re-learning trying to hone my skills to bake near-perfect cupcakes & frostings. of course with the help of honest feedbacks from my friends & family & my own family. But im still far from those professionals. Considering i have absolutely no baking lessons or art appreciating lessons. Im purely genetically-abled to bake (: Thanks to yoyot! My great-grandma started baking for a living, until now! then my Nyai & my mom & now me (: altho im bad at accepting weakness or failure but from this, i learned that i can overcome failure by never giving up. everytime i skip my way to the grocery store with monster i'll head straight to the baking section & ogle (: & i have tonnes of "favourited" websites & flickr albums. A little something to keep me inspired & drooling (:

oh, anyhoos, Im going on a cupcake eating spree after A's & i know someone who wont boot out on me (:
alright, that's enough for today i guess.

ps, i miss baking. Soon, my baby cups. Soon Mummy will raise you in the heat of the oven & pipe frilly frostings on you & decorate you with little hundreds & thousands & dragees. oh, love.

somethingforthelighthearted.





smuhereicome.

Can the days be more demoralizing than today? My body is really reacting to the sudden gear-up & major coffee-breaks. I get too tired to lift a finger by the time i reach home to break fast but after i eat, i'll get even more tired to get down to revise. & i'll turn to the good ol'e Gold Roast Nescafe (1 tsp only, actually) mixed with home-made hot chocolate. I took advantage of the pre-raya cookie making prep to knick some chocolates to make my hot chocolate (: It's really good! & i just read from a health mag that women who drinks a cup of hot cocoa everyday has less tendency to get sun burnt than those who dont. why didnt they post the article up earlier!?

Recently i texted my secondary school gf, Sabi to ask her about her results & all that. She's doing well in Uni & she advised me to really study & dont give up. She emphasized on the last three words: DONT GIVE UP. i guess im proud that ive come this far, taking the most dreaded exams ever. i see a light at the end of the tunnel & im nearly there (: just 25 more days...

SMU, HERE I COME!

i decided not to wait for monster to finish prayers so i trudged home alone. i went home & saw a block of butter in the fridge & had a sudden craving to bake. Well, it wont hurt a bit to bake for Raya. I went on picking up a new recipe from 500 Cookies by Philippa Vanstone i borrowed last week (i also borrowed 500 cupcakes & muffins by fergal connolly) i actually borrowed that book about a month ago & ive got great feedbacks so i decided to tweak the recipe a bit to make it healthier: less sugar, more oats!(: i wanted to add raisins but i hate raisins so i omit it. Im baking another set of cookies later on. maybe tomorrow.

I was all alone today, studying in the library & doing my revisions. It was good. I had a long walk to the bustop home & stopped by the new cafe to have another look. I was really looking at the cake-rotator fridge in envy & i just wished that my cupcakes are on display instead of those calorie-packed cakes. Im not saying cupcakes are not calorie based at all, they are, but only around 100kj. For vegan, its less! back to that cafe. Its cosy but a little too small for my liking. & im thinking if things are better in the future i may want to set up a lovely cafe along the beach or something. It'd be nice.

BUT! A LEVELS FIRST!!!

Monster told the whole (well, those who came) that computer games & Julie made him happy (:

Monster makes me happy too!
& Scary more days to the big As!
ok, im really speeding like shit i can pee in my shorts now.
bye all.