It's good to spend a night with great friends & great food! Altho i swear walking for 20mins to the other end to ECP is not great. But with the 4:1 ratio, well, nothing beats bullying the tohtuck boy. soon, adik!
i managed to sneak in some revision & studies today before heading out to break fast with the class. Really shiok lah. I was craving for Coconut juice but decided to go with the flow of Sugar Cane. & yes!!! SATAAAAAYY! by Rury's uncle. yum yum. -rubs bloated tummy- & heart-shaped egg & mutton chop. oh, the mamak was trying to hit on me. LOL. but so cute. not the mamak! the egg!
i was bloated even before i devoured my oh-so-scrumptious mutton chop. After i let Hidayah eat the peas of course (:
Thanks for the wishes & presents. I love all of it!
Aidah, Agnes, Anwar, Dee, Fad, Farkhan, Fatah, Gaddafy, Hidayah, Hilmi, Iskandar, Isra, Iliyasa, Jaslyn, Jack, Mel, Muz, Muzzamir, Nadia, Rosmainy, Rachel, Rury, Raudah, Sabrina, Shireen, Siti, Sufian, Sulaiman & those whom i didnt mention, sorry. But thanks a million.

that's about it, i guess.
-zip!

im still doing my write up for my testimonials. & as much thick-skinned i can get, i can never get around to write a paragraph on my character traits. So i'm just going to jot it down in points.



& I'm tired of being all alone, & this solitary moment makes me want to come back home

It was well-received (:


i want a pair of hot CK boyshorts.

with a whole week of atrocious papers done, i guess its all over. for now.
there's little than 6 weeks til the big As.
no school til Thurs, which is good cos i can have a head start on my revisions.
Til then, i wanna have a well-deserved rest. i kinda misplaced my handphone charger so i couldnt charge my handphone & its on the verge of dying. So whoever tried to get thru me but i didnt reply or answer your calls (which i have the habit), please be patient. i will TRY to search for the charger soon enough. But come to think of it, i have never felt so "free", not needing to reply smses & thinking of my handphone. so, i'll see if i WANT to find my charger or not (:

i woke up feeling so light-headed today. Wonderful weather, great sleeping company.
i already had a list of to-dos in my head & i woke up straight to it.
1. bathed Henna
2. have a long long loooooong cold bath
& some personal stuffs done. it took me 15minutes to get henna into the tub because she's being exceptionally difficult today. She's already awake by the time i got to her so its difficult to persuade her into the tub :( after many minutes, she just kinda gave up. LOL.
ooooooh papaya scrubs are heavenly. i smell so good to eat now.
im making buka today.
ive planned what to make (:

1. black pepper fried pasta & Swedish meatballs
2. baked strawberry wantons

sounds good eh? gonna go grocery shopping with momma dearest!
baby & me went around Singapore trying to kill time to buker together but ended up not. haha.
went town instead. omg. its been eons since ive stepped into town & now's a bad time cos we're fasting & walking around town wld make me hungry & tired & when that happens i'll go loopy! i dont remember half the things a said to him yesterday!

ooh marathon confirmation is done already (:

What is normal?
let Chris Crocker enlighten you. (S)he never fails to set me up in laughters (:


& about Gay Pride (i love this cos he's eating a cupcake)


& a die-hard britney fan

List out your top 5 birthday presents u wish for:
#1- more money!
#2- more clothes!
#3- spongebob monopoly set
#4- cupcakes!
#5- & a new purse

1. The person who tagged u is:
- siti nursyakila masli (:

2. Your relationship with her is:
- old friend! & im her cousin's neighbour living downstairs.

3. Your 5 impressions of her:
- giggly
- lean (am jealous!)
- good in malay
- caring &...
- did i say giggly?

4. The most memorable thing she has done for you:
- hmmmmm spent a whole lot of money to treat all of us during her birthday

5. The most memorable words she has said to you:
- i cant really remember

6. If she becomes your lover, you will?:
- erm, im not growing any lesbian tendencies here...

7. If she's your lover, what she has to improve on?:
- erh...i cant imagine

8. If she becomes your enemy, you will:
- i will be her worst nightmare. haha, but nah, i still wanna go for her openhouse yknw!

9. If she becomes your enemy, the reason is:
- she must have stolen my boyfriend haha, which impossible because she's with her man now

10. The most desired thing you would like to do for her now is?:
- none.. haha.. im such a baddie.

11. Your overall impression of her:
- still giggly

12. How do you think people around you will feel about you:
- erm, julie-ish?

13. The character you love about yourself is:
- i care about others more than i care about myself.

14. On the contrary, what character you hate about yourself:
- im a coward at times. i hate to see people cry.

15. The most ideal person I would like to be:
- barbie!

16. For the people who cared & liked you say something to them:
- THANK YOU!!! I'LL MAKE MORE CUPCAKES FOR YOU! ((: lovelove

17. Pass this quiz to 10 people that u wish to know how they feel about u.Hey, please do k? Its quite fun though its long. Thanks (:
*1: rose
*2: aidah
*3. fad
*4. hidayah
*5. veron
*6. siti
*7. syidah
*8. agnes
*9. syikin
*10.you!

Who's #2 having relationship with:
- haq

Is #9 a female/male:
- female

If #1 & #10 be together, will it be a good thing:
- rose & you?! hey, maybe ah!

#2 studying about:
- she's studying about how to decorate your house next time

When was the last time you chatted with #3:
- 2 nights before 8sept

What kind of music does # 8 like:
- cheena songs lah. hahaha!

Does #6 has any siblings?:
- yup, a bro & a sister

Will u woo # 3?:
- haha, maybe ah. she has lesbian tendencies!

How about #7?:
- maybe ah, if she's not with gab. cos she's so pretty!

Is #4 single:
- oooooooh, that's the question that alot of people had been asking me. well, you judge!

Surname of #5:
- TEO

What's the hobby of #5
- she like to skip school!!!

#3 studying at:
- MILLENNIA INSTITUTE

Have you tried developing feelings for #8?:
- i love her

Where does #9 live:
- somewhere jurong-ish

What colour does #4 like:
- brack & leyow

Are #1 and #3 best friends?:
- girlfriends

Does #7 like #2?:
- i dont think they know each other

How do you know #2:
- she's my braddy! we love hot pink bras. oh anyways, i got to know her when we're in sec1 but we got closer in sec3 & since then ive never thought of forgetting her; never.

Does #5 have a pet?:
-doggy! he's a jack russel. i forgot his name tho but you hafta call him handsome then he'll be nice to you.
prelims been a mess. ive never been so tired in my whole life before. my wrist felt like it can just rot & die the instant i put my pen down. & my ink only lasted for 4 days. & its finishing. i just bought the refill!
shant ramble on about how badly im gonna do this time round. its been a torturous week. but i finished the Deathly Hallows within 4 days (: & i cannot stop thinking about it. everytime i close my eyes, i dreamt about what i just read before i sleep. its insane i tell you! i read for hours & hours & neglected my prelims. sigh. stupid idiot.

omg. Dad just told me that our old friend, Ustaz Hassan just passed away. that came a huge blow to my dad cos dad hafta take over from now on to head the Tarawih at the prayer hall. Its been a very very long time since i saw Ustaz Hassan & he came knocking at our door late night 2days ago. i answered the door & he gave me a plastic bag filled with food. that was the last time i saw him. Innalillah.
but people who passed away during Ramadhan will go straight to heaven right? syukur. Allah really loves him. He's a very kind man. Bless his 5 children & his beloved wife he left behind. we'll help whenever we can. insyallah. i only know 4 of his children: mawadah, hamadah, afifah & siddiq. his other son is in mecca now in Uni studying to be an ustaz too & he's my age. all his daughters are from tkg except afifah. but they're bright nonetheless. i used to baby sit siddiq when he was younger & fetched him from school when he was in the same class as syasya.
time flies. they're all grown up & successful & their dad left. first daughter's a teacher, 2nd in the uni, 3rd son in mecca, the youngest are still studying but theyre exceptionally bright. if it was me, i would just crumble.

now the phone wont stop ringing.
people are calling us, the ones who is the closest to the family.
you hafta be strong now, Daddy.
i love you.

okay, done with that.
tommorow & the next 2 weeks will be grueling & torturing to my brain. it'd be back to back paper after paper, day after day. hopefully time past very fast. i have a very bad feeling about it because ive been dreaming alot more omen that i thought i would :( oh wells, met up with Aidah to pass her Happy cupcakes the other day (my memory is failing) & we had fast talk, fast giggle & fast window shopping. since she's working now, i should be able to meet up with her more often.




did i tell you my kitty cat loves me alot? she gave me a morning kiss & this infuriated my boyfriend. look how angry he is. scary kan? lol.

ps. DAMN YOU 9233!!!! @#!$#@

Its good to have someone sharing the same interest as you (: be it uniformed men or cupcakes, both gets you salivating anyways. i wasted (not really the kinda word im looking for..) THREE HOURS. reading harry potter. i couldnt stop! JK must have hexed the book or something. but yeah, last time, when i was in primary 5, i read the first book & i was enchanted by it, although i understood like only half of the English in there. i couldnt stop reading.
primary 6. PSLE.
secondary 1.
secondary 2.
secondary 3.
secondary 4. O levels.
pre-u 1.
pre-u 2.
pre-u 3. A levels.
& im still reading harry potter. that makes it 9 years.
i cant believe i grew so fast.
i wanted to be called "gala" & "sugarcane" again, back then in primary school when i was taller than the tallest boy in class & stick-thin.
i look so fat now.

somehow, like fad said, i made it sound like its prom tmr.
HAHAHA.
i wish!

ps. i strayed off topic but i was just talking about my new found 2nd cousin (:
pps. should i or should i not? someone please get me a spongebob monopoly set okay?

sucha humid weather! i dont feel like mugging seh like this. omg, my break time revolves around Half blood prince (yes, im not done with it yet) & neopets. haha. two very kiddish items for entertainment. & i made a batch of happy cupcakes (:

hint #1: you can get me an individual fondue set please (:
hint #2: Spongebob Monopoly set please

i am blessed with a passion to bake/cook!
check my 2nd cousin out. My aunt from Ozzie introduced her to me cos ive been keen on taking up baking lessons since last year. So she dropped me an email & i had no idea who she was so i googled "Nani minicupcakes" & i got her FLICKR page & double checked with my mom if she had any family ties with me. & i learnt that she's my mom's cousin's daughter who recently got married. (well, i was oblivious about all these). LOOK AT HER CUPCAKES LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
i envy her like x99999999 okay. im still a noob. But im willing to learn (:

oh anyways, its girls day today (:
it was fun & loving, especially the $5 tree (: why?

i nearly died of anxiety attacks today.
my house is in a mess from all the baking & kenduri.
& my dad just shouted at nenek in the morning (hooray (:)

anyway, back to my anxiety attacks.
happen that my dizzy spells was due to my low blood level again. Nyai wanted to whip up some some weird traditional concoction & my mom insists that she "amek air dari ustaz". erm, i prefer the modern way of taking iron pills for a few weeks. but i dont want to disappoint them. so i agreed to let them help me. so im off to the Ustaz straight after my exams to see if there's "anything" draining my blood. & i should be expecting some weird "jamu"-like drink from nyai soon enough. Hopefully iron pills will help abit. & lotsa red meat & dark green leafy veggies (PUKES). im not a cow. but i need to live. sigh.

why!? why are you doing this to me, uterus!? Why are you having the same problem as my heart, unable to function normally like all normal human beings!? Why are you making me have my periods 24/7 & 365 days a year. what, you want me to bleed to death?

IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT!?!! im more than thankful to get off that horrible hormone pills that make my mood swing like a giant pendulum & make me retain water like a balloon. now this.
what if.... what if, all these bleeding make me infertile? what if by the time i get married, my eggs will be gone & i'll reach menopause at the age of 25? yeah well, the gynae said it good that im having my periods while some girls out there are missing theirs. yes, its good. BUT (there was a but) that im suffering a condition where my fallopian tubes let go too much eggs. its abit rare but its functional. so that means there's a possibility that i'll grow out of it. maybe. 13% possibility.

maybe that caused my anxiety attacks. i think about my health every single day, every minute, as long as im breathing.
oh yeah, talking abt health, im just not fated to run anymore. the last accident i had put a halt to my running. i took my number tag but didnt turn up to run because my health is of concern :( what about marathon? maybe i'll just sign up for 10km la.

on a much lighter note,

its the second (:
g'morning Earthlings!
im still having dizzy spells, bad, bad.
is it my anemia? or is it just the weather?
i hate disappointing myself :(