Yesterday's my very last paper. Im not happy with it because i was stressed shit for the full 4 days what with double papers everyday. Grr. But we let it all out yesterday & it felt gooooooooooood. In fact, i never felt that good before. My mind was in a mess & talking nonsense everytime. & we'll just burst into laughter every single time.



the video quality is bad cos i used my phone to compile the videos together. & since im at it, i wanna show you something interesting during my course of "mugging" for mids. i found out that my cat eats Oreo & drinks milk. i mean the milk part is normal but the oreo part is erm.. weird.




& this was taken some time ago when i just cut my hair (3-4 mths ago?) considering i just cut my hair AGAIN!gah. haha, i love animals. ive got one more vid on the cats. but nvm. i shant bore you.



today's part II of relaxation wasnt very relaxed cos i had a rough night the night before. i woke up with a swollen eye & really ugly eye bags. after the swell subsided in the afternoon i met boyfriend after his prayers for lunch & yeah, that was rough too. But after i sat on the swing by myself, swinging. i felt better & i felt happier after i played with the cats. they're so adorable. we played "sumo" on the balancing beam & yeah, i vented out everything on him & punched him too hard near you-know-where. ooops. but i felt so goooooood.

love you.

fin.

hiatus til A divs are over

i love babies. & this one's worth the wait. She's such an adorable baby! & spending nearly 9 hours with isk's family is nerve-wrecking. So i volunteered to babysit his niece. im tired & i sprained my wrist from ytd's trg :( it hurts when i write. boooo.
He's gonna be an uncle again in another 9 mths.
hmmm productive family.
& im being acknowledged by his family by "ini yang itu hari kasi cupcakes eh?" girl.
& to daniel "ini matair uncle!" lol. he met me so many times already.
& to hasya "AUNTY JULIE! hasya ada idea! (whispers loudly & rambles on)"
okay, this is my first time meeting the WHOLE family at one shot & i cant help but to sit one corner & look on. They're so kecoh & i cannot help (again) but to chuckle to myself at their various gelagats.

i had fun.
but now i MUST study.

i found this vid in my folder
my champion baby (:
& this is what floorball girls do for cool down.
HAHA!




lotsa cupcake orders came in (:
& i wanna make macarons!

omgosh. if you saw the vid previously they will show related vids at the end right, i clicked on a pole dancer (READ: CURIOSITY KILLS) to my horror, it was a FAT WOMAN, wearing a black, supposedly kinky lingerie, pole dancing. eh wait, pole twirling. i wont call it dancing cos its a slow song & she's not sexy. its DISGUSTING please. gosh major turn off. i feel like gouging my eyes & brush it with chlorox or sth. ewk.

oh anyways, impromptu plan to go sentosa with the boy.
believe it or not, i was afraid to go into the sea. not that afraid, afraid. but just fearful, especially when swimmers drown a lot now a days. got to be careful. so we just hung around & chill. wanted to hit cafe del mar. but it wasnt open. that place is the sex man. i really wanna go there. one night k ? haha

oh, i cried just now cos my chain broke & my locket fell in here:
its so near but i cldnt reach it. i couldnt push it down. its my favourite locket see, so i was heartbroken that the chain broke & of all places, my locket fell at an almost impossible place to reach :( i was really really upset, i just buried my face in my hands & sobbed like a child. i'll go Sentosa agn with a pole & get it.

it actually fell into there (see circled area pointed clearly with a red arrow) :(
im really upset now. the boy wanted to buy another one for me. but i bought it online & i cant rmbr the website :( i bought it on impulse see, sigh. but even if there's another one, it's gna be different.
pictures are self-explained.
i was wearing his shirt the whole day cos i felt uncomfy wearing my tube (fashion clash!) haha. shant elaborate.
i love the skyride. while waiting for it to operate we wanted to get Ben&Jerry's but got traumatized by a tree snake who got too close to us. sentosa changed much since the last time i went there with my girls. its not like the way i use to enjoy it everytime we (the last time "we") went there after school to just chill & rot. it was much more stress free then. now everything is moving fast. skyride, luge, IR, resort, song of the island, no more musical fountain, ferry, more things erecting on Sentosa. too much for a get away, i must say.

the first time i went Sentosa without tanning much (cos im already so tanned the way i am now) gasp. what's wrong with me. im not attracted to hot bod hunks/ lifeguards at sentosa anymore. im looking at girls more now. GASP! i go there to chill & relax with my favourite boy. i dont look forward to energy-bursting activities at the beach anymore. i... i... changed. i.....suck more now :(
okay, i hate reflecting.

took the monorail (sentosa express) to vivo to eat. went to N.U.M to show bb what im gonna get him for his birthday when i saw this!

its a floorball top! comes in bball etc cant remember. but its attached to this useless string where u use it across ur chest. but its really nice! comes in blue only tho.
last friday, after trg i met the boy to go grocery shopping at the giant GIANT. haha, i was sore all over so i sat in the trolley & he pushed me around. we were racing, as in speeding along the super long aisles when we met his malay tchr (cikgu bakthtiar? ) haha, he concluded that im his sister. yah right...it was fun, but i was shagged to my bones!



when watching the video please look out for a chubby man wearing yellow tee & a very shocked ahmah (we nearly knocked into her!)




OKAY! ENOUGH OF BLOGGING!

yes, in other words, im dead beaten.
shagged to the max.


itenary for the day:

1) breakfast with Ah Gong.

2) Airport to study.

3) Airport to send Nyai off for umrah

4) Dinner with them


i was an hour late for breakfast lah! haha, whn i reached, Ah Gong was stonning already. we ate & we catch up on stuffs & he brought me to SRJC to meet Goldfish. Aparently she was climbing there. Went there met Serene too! so we talked & catched up on ALOT of things. lalaaa.. i dont know, i felt so happy meeting them (:

they brought me touring the college & into the staff room to see their tutor. & she's like, eh your gf ah. lol so i said im from J1 arts student (: let them take their SGC & i went off to the airport.


i can skip the mugging part, it'll bore you to death.
i bought Happy Meal again (:


around 5plus i went to Terminal 1 to send nyai off but that place is packed with makciks & all those jemaah going for umrah. i had a terrible time looking for them. & then i decided to break away from the crowd & went to the exit when i saw my great grandma looking lost with my great grandaunt & grandaunt. haha. poor them. & lucky me for being tall, i can see over the crowds to find the rest. aparently the grandppl were lost too. so i brought them over to the rest (:


i ate Mcds 3 times today.
breakfast
lunch
dinner

i feel bloated & my throat feels funny already (pouts)

off to hit the showers :)

ohhhh, i finally found the sundress!

mugging today was okay. kinda disappointed i couldnt finish the paper within 3 hours but there's still another set to go (heaves a huge sigh). i dont know if i'll complete my revision in time for the exam itself. its in 2 more weeks & i havent touch maths YET. & to think that that subject needed a hell lot more to practice :( i need to pull up my socks.

as usual, the boy popped by to follow up on his "reading" & we went gallivanting at CP. been eons since i've been there. We're always there during the Bartley Days. we went Kovan aft that to get his bubble tea & i wandered into This Fashion to search for cheap bargains. i was particularly looking for a sundress. But the ones there wasnt of my taste. In the first place, it wasnt even a sundress! GAAAHHH.

So nevermind.
i went home & did "research". haha, the ones from Roxy is just right but im not gonna purchase it online. its too hefty an amount for my froggie to carry. & to think im in desperate need to save up to pay for my upcoming tuition fees. Being a girl is sucha haste. i hate it. There's just too many things to buy. Sanitary pads are one thing. Boys have more money than us because every month, they dont hafta spend $10 on packets of sanitary pads or panty liners or what sort. Sigh. I was just thinking about what to do after A;s. I think its too far to think to for now. Argh, stupid exams. i think i can bid the sundress farewell. i've got other priorities for the money.

anyone care to plant me a money tree?
the ones at my place isnt sprouting crisp cash.

i skipped training due to the diarrhea & (THANKS ALOT AH) menstrual cramps. double blow.
i woke up like very early just to run to the bathroom, to find that my cat was using it.
bummer.
smsed roo about my condition & fell back to sleep.
back from a rather "intensive" mugging session alone. it was only a 4 hour straight studying mgt at Cafe Galilee. the boy popped by & i couldnt resist fooling around with him so we went off to get his Ramly Burger at the pm nearby. i had a splitting headache/migraine & slumped on the boy's chest all the way home.
i continued sleeping at home.
made an impromptu plan with the boy about tmr.



sunday

i studied alone at a very loser place (: it's sucha loser place that noone studies there & i had the whole cafe to myself, sipping hot chocolate (its been replacing my caffeine) & mugging like crazy. every now & then (with a loooooooooong interval in between) people come in to have a bite or two & leaves. so im happy cos i dont even hafta blast my mp3 to drown the noise. there;s barely any noise! (besides the clanking of cutleries of course)

i studied til my big sis smsed to meet her for POTC: at world's end.
so met her with my boy & her man.
its my free day! haha, all expenses paid for by my sis & her bf. no guilt involved. isk felt a lil guilty so he bought nachos on top of the HUMONGOUS tub of sweet popcorns sis bought.
the movie was okay. i cannot decide whether i love it or not because the ppl who watched it before me gave negative comments but, being a huge fan, i still love it.

JOHNNY DEPP (:

went window shopping at Dorothy Perkins, Topshop, MNG & other random shops we came across. My sis just spent $300+ on clothes. i was awed. haha.. went for dinner across the street & the boy & man sent us sisters home (:
& as usual, her bf is always talking about army (READ: BORING!) to isk & so me & my sis are the ones eating their share & gossiping. haha.

do you think people change as fast as you delete their numbers?
& they fade into oblivion without even saying goodbye.
friends come & go. that's what i learnt from the first day i went to school almost 14years ago.
my momma taught me that i cannot trust anyone except myself, even my boyfriend.
but i also learnt that you can put your trust on certain TYPE of friends that will not betray you.

i just feel horrible thinking about all these friendship fucks.
sometimes i wonder, why do you need friends?
you're living in this world for yourself, not for friends. friends out there lift you up sky high & abandon you like a ship wreck, left you alone to fall back to the ground.

but i do know that there are friends who are truly there for me. & i think the greatest friendship bonds we've all developed was during our secondary school days.
i know i have aidah, veron & kelly by my side.
i dont know about the rest.
i dont know about you.
do you think you deserve to be a good friend to your friends?
sometimes when i think hard enough, im a bitch to certain friends. i dare to admit.
but i dont dare mentioning their names because im afraid of hurting people's feelings.
that's my utmost fear: hurting people.
i care too much at times that i even go to the extent of hurting myself to avoid hurting my friends.
so tell me, am i doing the right thing?
do i deserve such friends.....

i guess i have to live out of it.
then i'll know what true friendship is.

yesterday was a very bad day for me.
the match sucks. i wasnt playing well. my mind wasnt in court. so i was like the benchwarmer for half the game. loser, i know. dont rub it in.
i felt sucky thruout the whole game but am anxious at the same time.
we won against ITE tamp & RJ anws. but i still feel sucky despite our winnings. put up a brave front & confided in the boy & i just rambled on & on til his lil niece picked up the other phone

hasya: -silence-
isk: hellooooo...
hasya: -silence-
isk: hasya please put down the phone
hasya: giggles. uncle wira buat ape?
isk: uncle wira tengah siap siap
hasya: hah uncle wira nak pegi maner?
isk: uncle wira nak pegi blajar
hasya: ohh.. dah siap buku buku smuer?
isk: belom, uncle wira tengah pakai baju
hasya: oh.. hasya nak ikut boleh
isk: eh tak boleh la.. dah malam
hasya: hah... takpe la. hasya bawak torchlight abeh tengok kalau ader orang jahat ke spiderman ke......

LOL.
oh anws, these past days ive been up til morning. not to study (i know i should feel guilty) but to bake. haha. the boy ordered cheesecups & i was too ambitious that i wanted to make this cake:



eventhough it wasnt the one that i PLANNED & visualised it to be, sigh. well, at least its still a cake. it is still pretty, in a way.
it was disappointed but im kinda proud of myself for moving a step from just cupcakes to REAL sized cakes (: -pats back-
but im still hoping for positive feedback from his mom! -crosses fingers-
ive been worrying about the feedbacks since this morning. i couldnt sleep well cos i was scared the ganache wasnt well received or something :S
aaaaaaarrhhhh...
i wanna go to shermay's school after A's.
& so far the cheesecups were well-received (:
alhamdulillah...