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-JULIE
def, noun
1. unfortunate & vicious
2. a need to be nurtured deep within
3. an undeniable fetish for felines

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wardrobe revamp
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butterfly cookie cutter
make my own cupcake tier
more pipe nozzles
new skinnies
that grey cardi
highlight hair when long!
pamper nails
more from Donut Factory
Fried Mars Bars diy
new pretty purse
Spongebob Monopoly
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get new piercings
trim my mane again
dosage of Ben&Jerry's
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17 January 2007

{edit@930pm}
you cannot blame him for how he is acting now. oh, its karma. have you been a good girl?see what you've done to mine.now you taste it.
like it?mmm{/edit}

GP @ i-hub (aka IT lab for goofers who dno)
like usual, i'll view my blog & bloghop, while mdm m was talking politics.
alright, i wasnt listening. i was busy swearing at people who went for Muse@FortCanningPark ytd. but i did my work after that. the damn spider wont leave me alone & jas wouldnt rescue me cos he hates spiders. bummer.
the rest of the day went pretty fast.

i scored 3/10 for my maths test cos i forgot everything abt differentiation. haha, basics rosak. & daffi was really a class joker. alvin & kanthan have a BIG competition.
i just wanna thank God for reading my blog. haha. remember my post ytd?
well, i was late for school today. im only one out of the 100++ latecomers today. so i din get the chance to shift the tables accordingly. & GUESS WHAT?! whn i opened the door, the tables are in order. as in, no tables infront of my row.
HOORAY!
that pissed that sucker big time. im so sorry mister, but you hafta sit behind! now, im free of bugger~
went for an impromptu late lunch with fad at jp. she had a choking hot tomyam + more pepper ban mien or whatever mien its called. it was hot like hell i tell you. i chocked almost immediately after i put the spoon in my mouth. haha, happy shitting, girl! i had a light lunch, i wasnt so hungry so i had takoyaki instead & mushrooms from fad's bowl.
went to NTUC to get some tidbits for skl cos i realised i cannot go empty stomach for 4 periods straight. bought some biscuits & chocolates to share with the boy. & i have issues with mental calculations. maths 9233 is getting tougher that such mental calculations are deemed intoleratable to me. haha, as in, i cant count for nuts. we were counting how many rochers are there in the different packages& i wanted to count the normal 16s-pack & i went pointing my two fingers on 2 rochers while my mouth said: 1,2,3,4.
& i did that twice when im suppose to count 2,4,6,8.
& yes, fad & me doubled with laughter at my "selenger bacin"-ness
went home with her & ogled at boys.
sorry ah baby... you're not the only baby okay. these boys carry much more fats than you & they're just irresistable to watch. right fad?

wei, i miss you. faster come home to me.
im still considering whether to join the Singapore Biathlon 2007.
but it's a 1.5km swim & 10km run.
& its in the sea.. that's like a big fear for me that ive YET to overcome. swimming at sea.
if that deters me from participating, i was eyeing the National Vertical Challenge.
climb 60 stories up.
haha. that's definitely out for me. our class used to be on the 5th floor & we're already granting permanent access to the handicap lift. let alone SIXTY stories. siao.
& right, next monday will be mentoring day.
that means, i hafta see Mr Azlan.
he'll be my FRIEND.

The teacher Mentor will be a FRIEND
F - Focus mentee's efforts towards studies and personal development.
R - Review mentee's involvement in activities.
I - Inspire mentee to perform to his/her maximum potential.
EN - Encourage mentee to explore alternatives.
D - Direct mentee towards self-discipline and self-directed learning.

fin.

17:07

16 January 2007

(watch this space)

was so lethargic today.
i shall blame noone but the sweltering & humid weather.
lucky for us, we've got airconditioned room (hooray?)
but i hate the container classes. it makes me feel so claustrophobic, altho i have no history of that. in fact, i love small places filled with loads of people. cos im sadistic. i love to see people get squashed by smelly armpits & wet greasy hair & suffocating for fresh air only to breathe in methane from someone who just farted.. but not me. count me out.
when it comes to me, the world is my playground. i want everything to be p-e-r-f-e-c-t.
JUST FOR ME.
im THAT self-centered.
pardon me for my selfishness but im feeling a little off-tone & lack of attention today.

alright, back to my lethargy.
the lessons went awefully draggy with Mrs S mentioning CHICKEN RICE everytime as her example for the liquidity preference (she later changed to pencil boxes cos we complained that she's making us salivate). that was already my last straw. but even before that, the 2nd period, im already imagining what i wanna eat for break. i was famished by the time i queued up for food.

& omgosh, the PAE students are like a swarm of locusts!
i hope you people DIEEEEE!
you're stealing away our food.
if not, why do the school implemented the cashcard-based payment?
they want to shoo you away!
go away!!!
you're making the school look small!
it's already the 2nd week of school!! arent you guys suppose to run away & crash other JCs or something?! be like me! i marked attendence & went out of school to gallavant! you should do to! its more fun than staying in school & eating our FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!
die, you people.
i hope you choke on cucumber sushi tmr.

other than cursing the year 1's, ive been busy with school. concentrating, more like it. this term's a killer for me. all my weaker topics are covered in this term.

GP: politics
MATHS: permutation, combination & probability
BIZ: biz finance
ECONS: sth abt finance

i cannot do accounting for nuts! & i forgot most of my perm&combi & the probb is getting tougher & complicated. i need to revise badly but i cannot find the time to do so. i need a time planner.
& its not only the topics that's troubling me, its the person sitting infront of me.
i cannot stand that person.
HE IS BEYOND ANNOYANCE.
i'll go to school early tmr & rearrange the class tables so that he'll sit at the back of the cls.
fucking irritating. always interupting & making me lose my concentration. plus! he's always touching either my pencil case or my table. eeee. did you see the KURAP on his arm!? omgosh. & he's alws dragging my boyfriend into his stupid conversation that doesnt get anywhere. who cares whether your fucking uncle earns $13000. for all you know, he's making things up to gain popularity.

ingrate.

___________________________

{we ran here & there,

all around this little maze of love.

we passed countless obstacles,

but in the end we were back to square one.

i guess this is fate; that we're meant to be together.}

three more days, baby.

19:16

14 January 2007

TODAY IS HEIGHT & WEIGHT DAY FOR BANGLAH'S! (will get to that later in the post)

i love plasters. they're my saviour.
i have this habit of pasting plasters on mosquito bites. haha, wasting i know. but i cannot stand itchiness.

i love reminiscing my childhood too, especially in ToysRUs. the other day the boy & me were looking for saddad's birthday present & the boy ended up following me over to the PINK section (read: BARBIE DOLLS!) i wanna collect barbie dolls. i told the boy last time that i wanna donate my 11 barbie dolls to his niece but i din have the guts too. my childhood leh :( i only have one, the Beauty & The Beast collector's item doll box resealed. i din have the heart to comb her wavy hair or let her red velvet dress get torn. she's my ultimate Barbie. the rest of my barbies no need to say lah (naked, raped & kissed by Ken which i threw him outt of the window cos he didnt have sharp pointy breasts). haha, all in a box with assorted clothings.

i also love masak-masak! i take one glance at all the masak-masak gadgets they sell in stores now & i go green with envy. i only had plastic pots & pans & a wooden stove to play with. i use to sell mee-rebus (it was my favourite food) okay! & my barbie dolls are my customers. sometimes i sell ondeh-ondeh (i used green play doh & roll them up & cover them with eraser "shit") eh... i miss playing lah.

then last time i have this doll house with has a battery operated light. i will stuff my polly-pockets in it & play in the dark. & my all time favourite was this huge doll (life-size of a 5 year old). i named her "Minah Jenggor". I KNOW! THE NAME'S VERY LAME! DONT ASK ME LAH. anyway, my aunt, who was doing her project in NIE then needed to borrow my doll. but she lost it. i hated her. i was so angry with her that everytime she came to our house, i cried. she paid me $10 tho. but i never forgave her for losing Minah Jenggor. but now i forgot about how angry i was lah. after all, i had tonnes of toys. & i also play with HOTWHEELS leh. dont underestimate me hokay. haha. one of my favourite was of course, Play Doh. cos of the smell. i love the smell of play doh. i used to make hotdogs & whatever food i know & tried to eat them secretly. but my elder sister was being sucha big mouth keep on screaming "MAMAAAAAA ADEK MAKAN PLASTERCINE!!" kentot leh she.

oh, talking about how loud-mouthed my big sister used to be.. she loves to scream too. last time lah. then there was once, (mom was pmsing, maybe) got so pissed by her, she sumbat belacan & bawang into her mouth cos she was screaming (cos i spitted on her). heee. she cried lah. she sat under the curtain & cried. & you know what i did?!
i squatted infront of her & made funny faces & giggled at her & spitted more. LOL.
but i got away scott-free!

but hey, im a changed person now.

alright, enough of reminiscing.
went to do my work with the boy today & we were sitting at the secluded corner of McDs in kovan, just next to the window. u knw there's this height & weight & BMI calculator outside that Mcds right? well, everytime im thinking i'll be gazing out of that window. & there was 3 different mama banglahs (at different times of the day) trying to measure their weight & height. so i was thinking, today height & weight for foreigners ah?

oh anws, the boy told me sth flattering junow! -blush 861328761 shades redder-

he brought back the cupcakes i made ytd & gave his mom & his sis. his mom commented on my cupcakes. but that buffy the bluffer told me that his mom was rather harsh on her comments about my cupcakes :(

she said:

"next time, tell her not to put too much sugar, if not it'll be very sweet (whispers to his sis) just like his girlfriend"

boy, was i utterly flattered. tell your mom thanks. but i still dont get it, is that good or bad?

fin.

18:44

the best thing about not updating regularly is that i can type an ultra long post to recap!
haha! let's see...
i made something for the boy the other day (cant recall when). here it is. its really simple to make & i was practically bored & sapped out of creativity. that explains the simple "thing".

january 11th
i passed my mock Napfa. gonna train abit harder to get silver at least. MI's standard very high leh. so our silver is actually a gold. hmmm so our gold would be platinum. haha, what dya expect from the champion of the MINDEF awards for 3 consecutive years. we're like the fittest among the JCs. boos to you brainy warty people!
today was our first Chinese lesson. it was funny cos we end up singing a particular song over & over again. i cant get all the tones right & it tickles me when i hear myself read the "shi & si" part. it sounds almost similar. my cheena is all over. its funny why the school wants us to pick up a third language now. we should be concentrating on our As.

january 12th

happy birthday lyn!

made potato salad for school & its like 3 people are eating 1 person's serving. no wonder i was still famished. anyways, the rain was scary. it was like "snowing" the day before, like throughout the whole day please. & then throughout the night, which made me sleepy & made me miss my Wenty baby on tv. by morning its still raining. but its okay, im armed with my favourite hoodie! was drenched when we reach school. both of us were drenched and cold AND late.

after school was a date. i didnt even know it was a date, because i thought i was only meeting the boy for dinner. we had pad thai & satay. yumm yumm. & when the bill came, he dished his buckeroos out & insisted on paying! okay, im already getting used to going dutch with him but the feeling of someone paying for me made me feel so conscious about myself all of a sudden. i know, sometimes i asked you to pay for me but this is more than our deal hor. please okay. once in a while is okay, but not everytime okay. dont pamper me so much. but it felt nice lah!!

& WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU TODAY?! you made me sooo happy. like, i dont know. i admit, i was angry with you & you're angry with me that i said those stuffs about you but haiyo. i dont know why we're like laughing our asses off just because you said "eh ehhh budak tu boleh jadi satay!". i dont know why i laughed til i cry, maybe because i was already having evil thoughts when the chubby girl walked past me, but i din know you're reading my mind!! haha, the boy accompanied me shop for chocolates & coffee. it was on sale. so i bought a whole carton. i need my frap badly.

oh anyways, while waiting for the boy to finish his prayers, i walked aimlessly around. bought cat treats for Henna & some meaty stuffs for her. that poor feline is dieing for my attention these past days. & i went to the library to browse around, & land myself with the best book ever.

yes, its called "PRETTY PARTY CAKES". the book's really pretty with really really nice recipes & cooking tips. i cant wait to try em out for syasya's birthday!

January 13th

class gathering today. i made strawberry cupcakes! i was late cos the cupcakes took an exceptionally long time to bake. & i was already betting with my conscience that noone is gonna bother to bring anything for the POTLUCK. i dont think they even know what is potluck. nevermind. i was kinda pissed the moment i stepped into the house. funny how the class clicked. cos the people who came were "Bartleyians" the 3 toh tuckies din come. hmmmm. Should thank Mdm M for her kind hospitality. & i've always wanted to stay in maplewoods since last time lah. every time my dad drive past there i'll tell myself that that's gona be my dream house cos it looks so cosy not the "edgy" kinda condo, see. haha, i just need Mdm M to adopt me & my dream will come true. or she can hire me to babysit Emily. guffaws.

hidayah & rachel, sorry i shouted at you girls on the phone. was kinda pissed lah. sorry :( hugs.
anyway, the gathering went pretty smoothly. everyone was jolly & gay.
cut things short.
the boy sent me home & okay, i love you. shhhhhhh.

photos time.

the limelgiht's on Emily.

julie & kak isra

julie, julie's big zit & agnes.

julie, julie's big zit & rach

yey! i love cakes! blackforest & nuttella.

January 14th
i had a weird nightmare & kicked my baby eeyore down the bed. i felt so lazy today. thanks Rose, for that sweet sms. I'm okay already (: going out with the boy later to print the photos & i still havent had breakfast.

11:12

10 January 2007

i cant help feeling miserable everytime you said "fuck" to me.
like wth. here i am, controlling my temper, not trying to say any vulgarities to you & there you are, saying the Fs to me. this is not the first time, thank you.
i hope you can control your temper next time.
i know you know both of us have bad tempers.
it doesnt make you any better to be left hanging like that in MSN right?
that's what you've been doing to me, btw.
dont go telling me you're useless or what not.
you're just not making the effort to tthink straight with a temper like mine.
at least i know how to control mine.

just fuck off if you dont care about me or dont wanna understand anymore alright.
i have low patience treshold & its at its brim of bursting.
i hope you read this & reflect on yourself before blowing & throwing profanities at me.
you can jolly well make new friends & forget about me.
ive had enough.
i prayed for you to change every single day.
but God doesnt want to grant my prayers.
i dont blame you.
i dont.

23:04

09 January 2007

MOCHA & CHOCOLATES

something random i saw on one of my friend's personal message on MSN:
"when i become Fuhrer..... all female personnel in the military.... WILL HAVE TO WEAR MINISKIRTS!"

i dont know why i found that funny.

anyways, today breezed (pun intended) through. & before i know it, it's 1530hrs. time to pack & up & head outta school. GP was interesting today. Mdm M dedicated a song to all the couple in the class. dont ask me about the song. its jiwang giler nak mampos.

head off with the boy & he dropped by my place to shop for groceries. i finally got my COFFEE! & some tidbits as an incentive for me to do my hw later tonight.

i need to start saving up already. i forsee my need for incentive-driven food increasing. yikes!

18:01

08 January 2007

IMPLANT & RABBIT

just to let you guys know, im going on a hiatus soon. i guess it'll be the first step on my list to increase my willpower.
#1. fight the urge to blog.
so one word for today: BURNT!
mentally, physically, psychologically & what not.
ive been training my mind to keep on telling myself to be strong.
& this day's the first day i prayed really slowly.
i was too tired to rush thru my prayers (i usually do that. oops) so i pronounced each & every prayer syllables & even read an after-prayer doa. i seldom do that unless i have the time. i guess i should do this more often because i feel peace at mind after reciting those prayers. im still finding time to read the Quran tho.

anyway no comments for school.
mock napfa was done pretty badly but i passed.
now i just hafta train harder.
i need coffee, but i dont have the energy to lift my butt off the chair to go get it.
fine, i'll procrastinate for abit tho. i'll just get hot chocolate to compensate for my low energy-ness.

19:33

07 January 2007

RUSH HOUR FEVER.

today was weird.
it was nothing but RUSH RUSH RUSH!
i woke up late, after feeling so tired since ytd's trg & shopping.
& rushed to shower & had bfast.
then rushed to pick my clothes for the photoshoot.
& then rushed to do my hair which took an agonizing one hour!
rushed to get my casuals & slap some make up on.
cabbed to UE Square only to find the studio locked.
photographer go & shit lah.
called him, ask him to RUSH.
hokay, so there, rushed to get the first suit on & slap more proper makeup.
i wore like 2 kinds of mascara cos i forgot to bring my fake lashes. LOL.
photo shoot was okay.
i had flashbacks of when i was young. cos when the photographer asked me to put my hand on dad's shoulder, dad rubbed his stubble on my hand!
you see, he used to play with me & chase me around the room before bed & rub his stubble on my cheeks & hands if i was naughty. & i always giggle & kick him around & blow kisses to him.
i never do that now anymore.
okay, childhood memories aside.
while choosing the photos, i realised how old my parents are.
& how "dad-looking" i am. yeah, i take alot from him. eyes - the sepetness, nose - the buttonness, chin - the sharpness, smile - the charming one. HEHH.
cabbed to bugis after that to have dinner. cos we're rushing to reach home before maghrib. i manage to eat so much (: yummmm.
& while cabbing back home, we got a racist taxi driver.
he's a malay, & was complaining to us about how much he hates the government being so biased & being so cheena-fied. & he thought i was already working & kak yuni still schooling. "tengok satu kali jer dah tau". dont judge a book by its cover lah, pakcik.
PEH.
i kept on giggling cos he was so funny. muttering about the bullshit. full of nonsense. i'll sue him. HAHA.

yeah, rushy day.
now, i hafta RUSH thru my econs essays & tutorials.
BUT!
school starts at 9.15am tomorrow. weeehuu~

19:31

its only WEEK ONE.
first week of school.
& i already feel my back hunching, eyes bluring, legs trembling, speech slurring, eyebags enlarging & etcetera etcetera etcetera.
in other words, its sucking me.
you know the thought of me sitting for A's never crossed my mind.
but its always A's chasing after me.
so much for the "try to be optimistic always" thought.
sigh, i guess i just hafta enjoy what's left of my life.
seeing the boy everyday after waiting for hours is painful ):
not the waiting part (although my butt hurts) but seeing him so shagged & haggard.
its like as if he din sleep for days & being forced to do manual labour.
but its okay, by next week onwards, i can see his smiley face in class (:

anyways, some random stuffs:

i wanna be the class treasurer. I LOVE MONEY! *twinkle in my eyes* (as quoted by Eugene Krabs, the manager of the Krusty Krabs in SpongebobSquarepants series)
the BBQ thingamajic's all been drafted. upon confirmation will we be able to get down & yummy.
family photoshoot today
henna got a new collar for he belated bday present
i havent got my hair & make up done for the photoshoot.
the boy gave me a surprise ytd!

alright. i was actually too tired to blog so much lah.
went for training yesterday with the boy. we did suicide instead of interval trg. i was too tired & plus i just ate breakfast. at least suicide wont get me barfing out my bfast. we did 4 sets downhill & uphill. it was enough to be a killer.

taught him what he missed during the O & then went suntec to get my lingeries. hee. & I MET ROSMAINY BINTE BUANG!!!!!!! you know Suntec is so full of people right, but only one person stood out among the rest! & that's mainy (: haha, i remember squinting at her & she squinting at me to check if we're dreaming or what & we hugged in the middle of the huge crowd thn went separate ways, only to be meeting each other again in the same bus! haha, so cute. missed you lah girl.

& to top it up, she's coming over today!

09:51

04 January 2007

HOKAY, my god-family (Henna's & Blue's ex-family) came for a visit today.
so my parents are throwing a big party & a huge spread for them.
oh, hidayah, they're hindustani's i think. those sharukh kahn kind. but halal.
i mean, muslim.
yeah, so basically, the girls hafta play hosts lah today, which is damn tiring.
& Henna forgot them anyways (i'm just being very protective of my cat, hokay). Aunty even said henna gained alot of weight.
haha, THAT'S LOVE MAN!
anyways, they came not for Henna. they came for NENEK.
lol. cos last time, nenek worked for them yeah. so yada yada yada. old ppl talk very boring one leh. so i dont bother to eavesdrop.

alright, school's on & stress' setting in.
the school's pinning high hopes on us.
& im up for the challenge.
heh, so positive hor.
"failure to plan is planning for failure" quoted by some witty guy which i dont know.
but im tired now lah
can you believe it? school ends at 330 & i waited for the boy til 6!
i swear i could have died of boredom.
lucky got ming shan, justin & ming fa.
ok, im dead beat.

20:23

02 January 2007

{edit 2300hrs}
i am feeling very very guilty now & im not doing anything about it. wth. ive got TWO MORE FRICKING GP ESSAYS & half a compre left to do & a lil bit of summarising for Econs to complete before school starts in 9hours plus. it pays to be a procrastinator. omg. i havent learnt my lesson yet. despite telling myself over & OVER again not to ever PROCRASTINATE in times like this. fucktard. hmmmmm i wonder how the rest are doing. well i guess this is the night for me, 5hours of wasted shopping when i can sit at home to complete my work. sigh, opportunity cost. i cannot decide. arghh.
& besides procrastinating, my other flaw is side-tracking. for instance this. i came online with a purpose of printing my work schedule. which i did. but instead of switching off the computer, i erm, decided to complain abit about how unhappy i am & how badly i should change this bad attitude of mine but im not doing anything to change for the better. fucktard.
alright.
lucky i only took less than 2mins to type all this.
im off. i guess i need coffee tomorrow.
& OUR MATHS TEACHER IS MDM LOKE! omg. i thought she'd retire or faint cos of the distance change but NOOOOOOOOOO, she's following. urgh.. thanks ah. i want MR NG HONG PIN PLEEEEEEASE.
{/edit}

(image heavy with no particular order)

dad sacrificing our sheep. tagged #99. the lucky one. see you in heaven sheep. mbbeekk. i spared you guys from the gory photos after this snapshot okay. thank me quick.

that's dad licking charcoal. lol.

the leg of lamb kebab dad BBQed for us (:

my legs are so sore.

travelled so much with my sisters today but i din get anything for myself. nothing caught my eye :( so i wasted hmmmm 5 hours shopping.

we hit bugis & town. but had fun ogling nonetheless :D

this is my kambeng.

henna says : mmmbekkkk i love the new kambeng carpet

my hair.

kak yuni's hair
as you can see, i do not need to redye my hair again (: & kak yuni chopped her hair worth like 20cm to be as short as mine. now i look more matured than her. 18>21.
haha, mathematical error.

syasya & me

this the obvious reasons why they call me kakak tall now.

me & my smelly comot spongebob kambeng.

hokay, bye. mbbekkk.

this is to compensate for the super ultra lenghty post few days back.
school tomorrow leh & i still havent got shoes :(

21:10

01 January 2007

{edit 23:39}
"no more of my butt resemling the flat tiles i sit on everyday to watch tv
& say goodbye to the endless threatens by dad to duct tape my face to the plasma screens (tv & computer alike)
& nailing my 10 fingers to the keyboard.
partying time is officially over.

Reality: CHECKED!"

SYTYCD is making me feel like boogieing.

{/edited}

bad omen, stale 2006 & silly dances aside; happy new year love!

2006 is nothing but a thing in the past that hopefully will stay vivid as long as im still sane. now cheers for the brand new year ahead of us & boos to the BIG A.

life starts from; NOW.

i wanted to talk to the boy from last year til this year but i was too tired to even open my eyes. so yeah you can fill in the rest yourself. but i get to talk to him 4 minutes before new year & then call him back after new year. hahah then back to lala land.

my first;

meal of the year was pathetic noodles from Banquet
activity of the year was completing my homework & forcing raj to start on his
eyecandy of the year is my boyfriend still
fast food was Mcds
activity with the boy was hitting the beach & destryoying barnacles
disappointment of the year is from the boy who said he got me a present but forgot to bring it (LOL. sokay baby.. next time then)
kiss of the year was from my kitty cat at 4.31am.

yeah, today was fun. havent seen the boy for eons & i enjoyed your company dear. especially dragging you all the way to punggol end. & sitting at one of the many thousand huge rocks there to just gaze into the sea together & watching the guard dog walk by & the uncles fishing & the sea birds gliding in the sea breeze. & fighting on the beach with you tryina carry me to sit on the barnacle-infested rocks. eeyer. sorry for pushing you down on the sand hor. but it's fun getting all sandy. & me piggy-backing you!! haha.. so fun. thanks baby.

& resolutions are written, a promise to myself, not a wish or whatsoever. to me, writting a resolution for the year is important cos it gives me a sense of direction & motivates me into achieving it (: & i cant believe that some people actually think that resolutions are wishes that will be granted or what lah. that's so naive!! nevermind, my point is, i hope i can stick to my words & achieve what i want by the end of this year. & i admit, i havent really achieved whatever i wrote down last year. sometimes, its bad to expect too much from yourself, only to be disappointed by your own self. hmmmm.

oh, does anyone have a spare collar pin?! i cant find mine & im in desperate need of it. first day of school's a major bummer with spotchecks & what not. i wanna make a good example. haha, senior lah katakan (EWWW so malay). so... i'll get my hair done by tomorrow. hopefully i do not need to redye it coffee again or sth. i think its "black" enough for the school.

(why am i getting long-winded every single day?)
p/s i just asked bapak for money! hehehh. his first new year activity: dishing out money to his girls. hahaha.

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