to miss hidayah amaliah binte mahmod, im not finding means to take a snapshot of my "hubby". we're not even married. YET. 

Your Stress Level is: 71%

You are prone to stress, and you're probably even pretty stressed right now. Life's problems seem to pile up on you, and this often makes you feel depressed and burned out. Learn to take time to relax and enjoy life, even if things are stressful. It's the only way you'll get through the bad times.

You Are 79% Vain

You're a little vain, but you also work hard for your good looks. Just remember, everyone knows you are a total hottie. You don't have to remind them.

You Are 48% Gross

You're more than a little gross, but probably no more gross than the average person. Maybe it's time to drop some of those disgusting habits that could eventually embarrass you!

Your Body Image is 16% Unhealthy, 84% Healthy

You have a great body image. You know that no one looks perfect, and you're happy the way you are. Also, you don't judge other people on their looks... and it helps them feel better about their own bodies!

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF) You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

took from agnes. yeah, we're the pregnant girls (: good fashion sense. loveloves.

sth to ease my mind off.

tons of questions that show your in depth side!
basics
whats your name?:	juliza
what do people call you?:	julie
where you named after anything?:	nope
if you were born the oppisite sex what would your name be?:	erh...no idea
do people spell/say your name wrong?:	yeah
if you could change your name what would you change it to?:	julie
gender?:	female
birthday?:	25thsept
age?:	17
age you act?:	7
age you want to be?:	18
height?:	165
eye color?:	dark brown
happy with it?:	yes
natural hair color?:	dark brown
happy with it? if not do you dye it?:	no.. that's why it was violet brown!
righty or lefty?:	righty
family?:	moma, dad, big sis, lil sis, didi
pets?:	Henna: a siamese mixed cat
peircings?:	4
tatoos?:	none.
love and stuff
single?:	-shrugs-
who are you with, or who do you want to be with?:	him
are you in love?:	not sure
have you ever been in love, if so how many times?:	2
do you believe in love at first sight?:	no
is it possible to be faithful to one person for ever?:	possible
do you want to get married?:	yes
do you want to have kids?:	yeah
how many?:	2
do you believe in divorce?:	if ure married to a monster.
do you belive in true love?:	i hope
do you consider love a mistake?:	kinda
turn-ons?:	nice hair, nice bod, nice smell, captivating smile
turns-offs?:	BO, stinky breath, bad sense of fashion
do you think the oppisite sex finds you attractive?:	neh
what is best about the opposite sex?:	they're strong
what is worst about the oppisite sex?:	they're oblivious to our needs
are you a virgin?:	yep
do you belive you should be in love to have sex?:	yeah
how far have you gone?:	not that far. lol
how many people have you had sex with?:	none. im still a virgin, hello?
do other people consider you a slut?:	no
right at this moment...
where are you?:	in my room
what can you see out your window?:	darkness
are you listening to music?:	yes
are you lonely or tired?:	both
use 5 words to decribe how you are feeling::	lost, depressed, lonely, lifeless, swollen
are you talking to anyone online? if so who?:	noone. im not replying to anyone.
are you talking to anyone of the phone? if so who?:	noone.
what are you wearing?:	OBS racer-back & shorts
what are you doing?:	this survey?
whats on your mousepad?:	my mouse
friends
how many true friends do you have?:	a few trusted true friends
are you a loner?:	kinda
who is your best friend?:	aidah
oldest?:	veron
newest?:	crystal
shyest?:	me
loudest?:	agnes
smartest?:	rachel
ditziest?:	huh
funniest?:	hidayah
who is the best listener?:	fad & rose
do you prefer to hang out with one friend or a group of friends?:	group
who do you wish you were closer to?:	him
who knows the most about you?:	him
who knows the least about you?:	him
who do you trust the most?:	him
the least?:	him
who do you fight with the most?:	him
who do you talk to online the most?:	him
who do you talk to on the phone the most?:	him
do you trust others easily?:	kinda
name one who's arms you feel safe in::	him
who house were you at last?:	hidayah's
who's your second family?:	w'fac
who lives the farthest away?:	fad
do you....
smoke?:	i hate smokers
drink alcohol?:	no
do drugs?:	no
pray?:	yes
go to church?:	no
sleep with stuffed animals?:	yeah
take walks in the rain?:	yeah
dance in the rain?:	not exactly dance..
do any sports? if so which ones?:	tracks, swimming, netball, floorball
sleep around?:	time not constant
lie a lot?:	no
steal?:	no
gamble?:	never
have you ever....
kissed a stranger?:	wah crazy
slept with a stranger?:	wah!! never in my life!
spun until you were so dizzy you couldn't walk?:	when i was a lil girl, always.
screamed so much you lost your voice?:	yeah
laughed so much it was painful?:	haha yup
cried so much it was painful?:	yes
gone skinny dipping?:	yes
played strip poker?:	no
had a medical emergency?:	not really
ran away from home?:	yes
done something extremely unexpected?:	yes like running away from home.
slept outside?:	camps?
been onstage?:	yup
deep stuff....
whats your biggest fear?:	darkness
what was your weirdest dream?:	a very wierd dream
scariest dream?:	scary ones about losing him & i died in a freak accident
do you have a reoccuring dream?:	once or twice. cant rmbr
what was your best dream?:	i cant rmbr but i rmbr it made my WHOLE WEEK!
what IS your dream?:	to be a marine biologist
do you live in the moment?:	heh?
what you greatest stregth?:	eating
whats your greatest weakness?:	self-discipline. im a major procrastinator
do you have a motto you live by?:	once but i bypass it
if your life were a movie what would it be called?:	Love Actualyl
do you have any bad habits?:	smelling my smelly pillow & pulling & twirling baby hairs.
do you have any secrets?:	yes
are you fake?:	no
what do you want to do in life?:	to live it
are you a daredevil?:	kinda.. when it comes to sports.
are you predictable?:	no.. im a human time bomb.
do you keep a journal/diary?:	yup.
if you could change one thing about you would you? what would it be?:	my life.
if you were someone else, would you be friends with yourself?:	yes
do you think your a good person?:	yes
do you think your emotionally strong?:	no. my major weakness lies in dealing with emotions
do you regret anything?:	alot of regrets
do you think life has been good so far?:	no
what do you like most about you body?:	my long legs & neck
least?:	my hair
are you trust worthy?:	yes
are you gullible?:	ABIT!

im still feeling abit woozy & melancholic. but i should be alright. im having music therapy. & jack's theory of having a cold shower to wash away blues really worked. although i couldnt remember that part about jack telling me all those. & surprisingly, isk was the one who reminded me about what jack said..hmm. isk had been taking care of me really well. he fed me with tonnes chocolates & other chocolatey products & lotsa warm hugs & kisses. i feel so loved.
lotsa controvercies happenin' which i feel rather compulsed to pen it down. but i find that if i were to keep it obscure, it really defeats the purpose cos inevitably, i'll still feel low. so might as well i blog it down.
{edit}
the portion had been deleted
{/edit}

my house is breaking apart.
i hadnt been home so much & all.
i had a row with my big sis.
my computer ditched me.
the aircon leaked.
so basically, i cannot study at home.
oh wells, saturday was our class night out.
i totally have nothing to wear. so i made isk wait for an hour while i went home to shower & dress up.
oops. girls will be girls.
wore that Zara top & Mango pants lah.
& i looked pregnant. hahaa. at least agnes & me have the same fashion sense huh girl.
everyone was dashing & wow..
but the show was oklah. i kinda understood it & all.. but the rest was complaining.
hey, at least my job as the Arts Liason Officer is over. as for now that is... there's 2 more Arts show to catch.
& Shmeer's performance is next sunday.
planning to catch it...

{edit}
oh nvm. my computer's back up. thanks dad. hee..
first day wasnt as bad.
noticed quite a number of people cut their hair too!
& i realised i was a lil bit too caught up between revisions & i din do any of my tutorials.
hahaa.
except maths. boos.
& yeah, Mr Raj caught me sleeping in maths class. & he asked fad to knock my head!! evil!
oh... to make the first day SIZZLING, i spoilt the class light UNINTENTIONALLY.
the whole row of light went short circuit.
it went sizzling then poof & smoke came out lah! so scarey.. well i ran out lah.. haha. so funny. what a way to start the school term.
afresh.
& its Anwar's last day :(
BYE LASELLE BOY.
i hugged him after malay class & he refused to let go of me. haha he's making fun of isk lah. so bad... & fark was like, "eh isk, ko tengok! kurang ajar!!" hahaa..
ok. im tired. off to finish my tutorials!

im having a really bad time weighing my emotions right now. im on the verge of breaking down. it's been a really really long time. & that feeling came back. the same feeling ever since i broke up. i dont know why now but it's happening. i just cried on my notes & left a huge puddle there. i seriously have no idea what befuddled me but there is nothing wrong with my life. i am happy with isk. life has been exceptionally good. i am really looking forward into the future with him & all. now that its more than a year plus, i really trusted him & this relationship. but why this fugly feeling?! fuck it julie. ARGH. fucking hormones. must be the medication. must be the constant hospital visits & the needles & the hospital smell. the constant cold hands of gynaes feeling for my pulse & taking blood pressures. its driving the balls outta me. i was never this bad ever before. i was very happy except for the occassional moodswings & the tempers. other than that, today was very good. i was looking forward to tomorrow's performance & everything. i had fun with baby today. but why this sudden outrage & displeasure? gimme an answer? anyone? im feeling utterly down. i think ive already reached the bottom pit. i cant guage if im unhappy or depressed or just stressed out. either of them, im feeling very uneasy. i dont know why but ive been avoiding floorball trainings although i feel fine. i kept on thinking im sick. i keep on thinking alot. i want time to pass faster. sometimes i wanna end my life here. but what will happen to isk if i do? hidayah & me were talking about her cousin's gf who died infront of him. i was really shaken. i kept on thinking what will happen to him if that were to happen to me. or what if my poor weak heart failed me? or what if my liver refused to produce anymore blood & i have a very bad asthma attack. or worse... i died suddenly. leaving everyone i love behind. i didnt even have time to look behind. look at their faces for the last time. having him breathing down my neck when we hug so tightly. those hugs always made me secure. but why am i feeling so horrible now? its not that i havent seen nor met him for eons. i just met him just now. why did i feel so distant from everyone. why am i choking my tears in my throat. my tears are like burning my throat. i dont know what's happening to me. i dont wanna talk to anyone about it. i feel so useless. i dont know. all i wanna do is cry. & i dont have the whole world to myself. if you really have the impression that mentang mentang my bf's the school president, i have the whole world to myself, then you;re wrong. you';re fucking wrong. i dont. i have a hard life here. believing myself & the voice in me. i can no longer judge what is wrong or what is right. im going nuts.
i need to pray.
leave me alone.
i dont feel like going tmr anymore.
i dont feel like doing anything anymore.
i need to pray.

some pix from bintan. i love the sea (:
yey (: daddy said he'll bring us to snorkel this september at Tioman.
IVE BEEN DIEING TO DO THAT.
(:
after snorkelling, i'll try to convince my dad to bring me for a bungee jump experiato.
yahooo!

{edit}
i seriously think i should blog about this.
-guffaws-
it's called public humiliation.
well, ytd me & isk had doubles with aidah & haq.
well, we met up at Mcds at PS & were chatting & catching up & all those..
suddenly isk pinched me.
so i turned around almost instantly scanning the area for a singh.
you know that game, where you gotta guess the right colour turban of the singh?
i saw a black one.
& then.. that guy just came by & leaned across the banister & said some stuff.
we were actually sitting outdoors & i was looking at him, & tried to connect his eyesight
i was looking around to see who he was talking to
& it happens that he was talking to my bf!
that guy said, "nice game ah? pinch to see colour. singaporeans ah? good game"
sth around that line.
i smell sarcasm.
hahaa.. but wth, i wasnt embarrassed, & im actually kinda taken aback cos i get embarrassed easily especially when a stranger said that. but isk was kinda embarrassed. should look at his face. he said sorry & continued smsing.
oklah. i admit, it was my mistake for scanning the area "too hard".
but cant blame me right? i just want you to stop pinching me.
& the only way? say the right colour!
yeah. so blame me for looking at people like that.
i wont look next time.
{/edit}

#300.
i still miss diaryland.
4 years of blogging there.
acks nvm.
i saw quite a number of weird people today.
studied at potong pasir Mcds in the morning.
its kinda quiet initally but subsequently flocks of SAJC-ians & more SA boys flooded the place.
i was literally thrown off focus.
& there's this woman, unofficial Mcds worker, she was happily cleaning the place..
carrying trays, throwing the rubbish & all..
then met up with my darling aidah & her bf
went ps, then this building i frgot, & compass point.
went into watsons & this little girl is busy re-arranging tissue papers. hahahaaa!
& im still in OBS mood.
was telling aidah everything abt it (:

kelly had been BUGGING ME NON STOP! i repeat, NON STOP to do this junk.since eons ago!! like 3 weeks? she claimed that she wanna know more things about me. but how much can u know if i only pen down 7 fucking things?! hahaa.. up to you lah girl. i'll LET you know more about me yah?

SEVEN stuffs you want to know about me.
1. i get annoyed easily
2. i still got my smelly pillow to sleep with since i was 2.
3. im having a cough now
4. im coughing
5. im a cougher
6. my hair is fucking short. ACKS!
7. i just bathed for 1 hour.

SEVEN things that scares me.
1. dark places
2. very dark places
3. VERY VERY dark places when im alone
4. God
5. hurting myself emotionally, mentally & physically
6. making a fool outta myself
7. & everything else that scares me.

SEVEN random music im listening to at the moment
1. dance inside
2. if its loving that you want
3. so contagious
4. far away
5. as lovers go
6. blue & yellow
7. cut up angels

SEVEN things i like the most.
1. shopping
2. oggling
3. great music
4. IM-ing
5. my bed & everything else on it
6. those eeyores!
7. SUNFLOWERS!

SEVEN things i say the most.
1. huh
2. oke
3. cmon lah..
4. fuck it
5. bleh
6. acks
7. heeee -gives sheepish smile-

THERE! hope you learnt more about me bitch! muahahahaa..

i finally manage to hang out with hidayah for the whole day (: 7hours+ more like it.
hee..
went over to my girl's place for an initial purpose of mugging.
but when girls meet, they do everything except that.
i bought wella straight before dropping by so that she can help me.
& we watched 2 M18 shows. hahaa..
both. erm.. wow.

1. Not Another Teen Show
2. 40 Year Old Virgin

very fun indeed. a mini back-to-back movie marathon (:
doing my hair takes nearly 3 hours...woah.
talked & did pretty much of catching up.

i really missed her lah.
& yeah, we played dress up! & yuppppp.. narcissism was brooood man..
we were jumping on & off her bed snapping & snapping & oh that poor guitar..
& i had chocolate mousse cake, i think, before i left!! yummy!!

& guess what i had for breakfast earlier? i had..........
ICE CREAM WITH CHOPPED STRAWBERRIES & GREEN APPLE WITH RAINBOW RICE!
yumm yumm..

hey, girl's have their fun too.. like this.

gimme back!! its mine!

i told u she stole my bra..

the child in us. HEH.

i love this pic (:

i love this girl!

i find this reaaaally adorable.

{edit}
dinner was great!
been sucha long time that we went out as one BIG family.
i ate so much & i utterly forgot abt my bad throat & ate dreadfully.
im a coughing cow now.
& i swear if i cough any harder, i'll cough out furballs.
haha..
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY OLD MAN!
it's today right?
oh & thanks mummy! for the dinner treat!
{/edit}

i felt so bad.
im bad.
bad bad girl.
go study! now!

ripped this from someone's blog. was bored lah.

*You can only say YES or NO.*
* You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone comments and asks!

1. Taken a picture naked? NO
2. Painted your room? YES
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? NO
4. Drove a car? YES
5. Danced in front of your mirror? YES
6. Had a crush? YES
7. Been dumped? NO
8. Stole money from friend? NO
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? NO
10. Been in a fist fight? NO
11. Snuck out of your house? YES
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? YES
13. Been arrested? NO
14. Made out with a stranger? NO
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? YES
16. Left your house without telling your parents? YES
17. Had a crush on your neighbour? YES
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? YES
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? YES
20. Seen someone die? NO
21. Been on a plane? YES
22. Kissed a picture? YES
23. Slept in until 3PM? YES
24. Love or miss someone right now? YES
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? YES
26. Made a snow angel? NO
27. Played dress up? YES
28. Cheated while playing a game? YES
29. Been lonely? YES
30. Fallen asleep at school? YES
31. Been to a club? YES
32. Felt an earthquake? NO
33. Touched a snake? YES
34. Ran a red light? NO
35. Been suspended from school? NO
36. Had detention? YES
37. Been in a car accident? YES
38. Hated the way you look? YES
39. Witnessed a crime? NO
40. Pole danced? NO!
41. Been lost? YES
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? YES
43. Felt like dying? YES
44. Cried yourself to sleep? YES
45. Sang karaoke? NO
46. Sucked your thumb? YES
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? YES
48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? YES
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? NO
50. Kissed in the rain? YES
51. Sing in the shower? YES
52. Made love in a park? NO!
53. Had a dream that you married someone? YES
54. Glued your hand to something? YES
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? NO
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? NO
57. Been a cheerleader? NO
58. Sat on a roof top? YES
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? NO
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? YES
61. Played chicken? NO
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? NO
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? NO
64. Broken a bone? NO
65. Been easily amused? YES
66. Laugh so hard you cry? YES
67. Mooned/flashed someone? NO
68. Cheated on a test? YES
69. Forgotten someone's name? YES
70. Slept naked? YES
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? NO
72. Performed on stage? YES
73. Blacked out from drinking? YES
74. Played a prank on someone? YES
75. Gone to a late night movie? NO
76. Made love to anything not human? NO!!!
77. Failed a class? NO
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? NO
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? NO
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? ......NO
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? YES
82. Thrown strange objects? YES
83. Felt like killing someone? YES!!
84. Thought about running away? YES
85. Ran away? YES
86. Did drugs? NO
87. Had detention and not attend it? YES
88. Dumped anyone? NO
89. Made a parent cry? YES
90. Cried over someone? YES
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? NO
92. Dated someone more than once? YES
93. Have/had a dog? NO
94. Own an instrument? YES
95. Been in a band? NO
96. Drank 25 sodas in a day? NO!
97. Broken a cd? NO
98. Shot a gun? YES
99. Dated a married person of the opposite sex? NO!
100. Written a love letter? YES

omg. we finally found the TOAD. after days.
i really thought Didi was playing a prank when he told me days ago that he saw a toad in mummy's room & it jumped into daddy's room. NOONE BELIEVED HIM. & i freaked out when i saw that hideous creature leaped into the shoe rack junow.
OH GROSS!
& it refused to go out pulak tu.
degil nak mampos!
so i brought my HANDY DANDY [reminds you of blues clues, Amundsen?] cat.
but she freaked out too. she just sniffed that smelly creature & ran off.
useless cat.
in the end, the toad found its way to the doorway.
yey.
no more toad in house!
__________________________
we were studying somewhere at Millenia Walk [which i just learnt that it has only one N & not 2.] & this customer, starting shouting at the service attendant lah. like just because of 30 FRICKIN CENTS! & the person upsized his meal for him & he scolded her for it & he's like demanding for the BENEFIT OF 30CENTS.
so if i rmbr correctly, it was like:

customer: I TOLD YOU COUNTLESS OF TIMES, NO UPSIZE!
person: im sorry sir, we'll change it.
customer: ITS TOO LATE NOW. DIDNT YOU HEAR ME SAY JUNOW? ARE YOU TRYING TO CHEAT MY MONEY?
person: no sir
customer: WHAT IS THE BENEFIT OF 3O CENTS, TELL ME
person: -silence-
customer: IM ASKING YOU A QUESTION!
person: no sir
customer: NO BENEFIT? ZERO BENEFIT!!
person: -shakes head-
customer: WRITE DOWN YOUR NAME! BEFORE I CALL THE NEWSPAPER DOWN.
person: my name is BLAH BLAH BLAH, sir
customer: I SAID WRITE IT DOWN!!

i seriously think that consumers nowadays are getting more over the head lah. its like, what, since peple serve you food & call you sir, maam, you have the right to shout in their face? & come one lah, its only 30 cents. you're loaded with cash, public are getting more educated too ok. it doesnt mean, they serve you, theyre of a lousy caste. respect lah. i felt so disgusted & this kinda ppl ought to be shot on their ass.

maybe he's just having a bad day.
period.

i need to redye my hair again. shucks.

see lah! i look super retarded man

super short shorties.

not much happened today.
i spent time with myself the whole day & quarelled with THE WITCH WITH A B.
i missed hidayah so much.
got some time & chatted with her..
she made me feel so warm...... that's why i love her so much.
i was window shopping alone junow & i went into this shop.
it was tuned into a chinese radio station lah..
& the DJ was saying sth abt some event at SPCA.
& he said "bla bla bla.. SPCA, just opposite OUTRAM INSTITUTE"
i grunted & was thinking to myself;
dont they ever update DJs?

on the way home, i was well entertained.
eavesdropping the whole journey.
hahaha.. bad bad girl.

today was a total slumber.

i was at home most of the time. first time since school closes. oh gosh.. well, cooked my favourite casserole [spelling?] today (: kudos to me, it was a success. then i ate my lunch with my lil sis & we bumped infront of the comp playing our ass off until the elecricity was cut off. BUMMER.
so we were bored & i called baby up for some entertainment & it was frickin hot i tell you. but they restored the electricity back within 30mins. so i was saved! baby came over & i packed him some lunch tt i cooked & i made chocolate fondue for him too! yummy. it makes me so happy to see him gobbling up what i made. hee.. but the kway teow that i cooked the last time was still vivid lah. it has too much gravy, too salty, too oily. but he still ate it (: poor baby. it was my first time ok!! & he was my guinea pig. hahahaa..

oh wells. we wanted to study at the CC but there were alot of old people. so we went scavaging for quiet & condusive void decks. but before that, i made a rather spur of the moment decision to cut my hair. like finally. so i walked into those cheap hairdresser & she.... erm. she CHOPPED MY HAIR.
-wails uncontrollably-
i dont know what to do now.
its SHORT.

SALSA IS GREAT!
i was doing the "popping" thing junnow & eventhough i kinda got it, i look like a total bimbo.
but it was fun lah.
the bad thing was, i hafta "share" my boyfriend with the other girls.
boooos.
& the death drop was super swoooosh.
i love it.
maybe im not THAT heavy afterall.
yey.
i wanna drag my sis down to HardRock for the Salsa night this 29th..
& get our groove on baby.
i was stiff sick junow.
i just couldnt loosen up my hips & shoulders.
bleh.. i can dance for nuts anyways.
-shrugs-

i love spongebob.
haha how random!
today was fun but tiring.
yey.
woke up late & rushed to do the laundry..
that's the thing i hate when my parents are out of town.
i MUST do everything myself.
haiyo.
rushed for floorball & had difficulty putting in my laces.
omg.
im sucha wooze.
but its ok, my fb shoes are MUD FREE! it's significantly pink & red now.
i can still rmbr grimacing at the sight of my shoes when i entered my kayak.
it's GREY. with blobs of mud.
icky.
back to where i was,
we din floorball AT ALL.
we played HANDBALL.
IT WAS DAMN FUN.
before tt, ama taught us this trust game.
"if you see your team player suffering, go over & ease their pain."
& we got excused earlier cos of our SALSA class.
we were AN HOUR late & yes, i really enjoyed myself.
fun fun fun...
there'll be a party at Sentosa on the 24th.
but cant go. Rain on 24th.
nyeh.
then tuition.
needless to say.
four words.
s h a g g e d t o m y b o n e s.
but icicles really perk me up. yey.

this is what happens when you try to sit down with the whole load on your shoulders.

my angels. loveloves.

Informal Amundsen & Armstrong.

formal Amundsen & Armstrong.

the competitors from Indonesia, Singapore, Malaysia, China, India, Puerto Rico of the 2006 kayaking race.

Juan Pablo Julie & Hua Tong Tong Syarif from Puerto Rico at 5th position at kayaking race.

after storm & mass bath with Amundsen.

this is definitely picturesque. sunrise at campsite. day3.

AMUNDSEN & LUM!

omg. booby-grabbing & long twine haired guys.

me & sally girl

1st day (:

AMUNDSEN!

last day before departure. my angels.#15 

if you dont feel the love anymore, i wont force you baby.
i just came back & im clueless about why you're feeling that way.
maybe its because of the insecurities ive caused.
but i thought......
& i thought...
if you dont wanna move along, i'll go.
noone will hurt this way.
if time is what you need.
then time i'll give.

You dont have to move, you don't have to speak
Lips for biting.
You're staring me down, a glance makes me weak
Eyes for striking
Now im twisted up when i'm twisted with you
Brush so lightly
And time trickles down, and i'm breathing for two
Squeeze so tightly.
I'll be fine, you'll be fine.
This moment seems so long
Don't waste now, precious time
We'll dance inside the song

i have another new cousin.
Siti Sarah Andrea
i think.
her name reminded me of the flying bug Saffy named.
heheehhh..

im back! finally.
but im shagged to my bones lah.
& im sick.
i feel so fatigue & feverish.
wait, i am having a fever & down with a flu.
ive unpacked, washed all my clothes & shoes yey.
OBS was really fun lah.
me, fad, rury, many, edith, anwar, sally is in AMUNDSEN.
but rose was separated. boos.
but we're side by side.
i love everything we did.
it was really an eyeopener for me (:
& im the ic for food. hahaa..

• hiking was a killer. my backpack weighs a tonne.
• stargazing with AMUNDSEN was great.
• quarry jump was cooling & refreshing.
• sea expedition in the storm was both scary & fun.
• mud botach is muddy. duh.
• pee-ing in the sea is warming.
• jetty jump = hyper adrenaline rush
• night walk was unforgettable.
• Amundsen watch is gerek nak mampos
• kayaking race with indonesia, malaysia, china, singapore, india & puerto ricco
• sleeping under the stars & moon with the noise of toads quacking is annoying.
• peeing with 4 other girls while watching the sun rise is serene.
• rashes gave me a panic attack

i got hold of a couple of pretty songs. & im in love all over again.
#366 really changed my perception of things.
i mean, when i look at him, i see the future.
am i too far-fetched or what.
its just beyond explanation lah.
ive never felt so deeeeeeep before.
& not even with jack.
i realised my love for jack had been shallow.
cos now, isk is the man. my man.
my boy.
my baby.
he's so precious.
its like, when im with him, everyone seem so so far away.
all of them faded in oblivion. [which i dont know what it meant, but it does sounds nice yah?]
my stuffs are all packed now.
& the best thing is, its his bag (:
oh wells.
its only 5 days yes?
i dont know why im feeling so heavy hearted.
"you shouldnt feel that way because your heart wont feel right when you kept on thinking about him, & in the end, you'll think too much & you'll break your own heart"
quoted by olivia.
thanks girl.
arh.. my minds all jumbled.

i am going to enjoy myself.
i am going to enjoy myself.
i am going to enjoy myself.
i am going to enjoy myself.
i am going to enjoy myself.
i am going to enjoy myself.
i am going to enjoy myself.
i am going to enjoy myself.
i am going to enjoy myself.
i am going to enjoy myself.
i am going to enjoy myself.
i am going to enjoy myself.
i am going to enjoy myself.
i am going to enjoy myself.
i am going to enjoy myself.
i am going to enjoy myself.
i am going to enjoy myself.
i am going to miss booboo.
friggin badly.

260th.

last night's conversation with moma:

MOM: is your boyfriend going OBS too?
me: no.. he went already.
MOM: oke.. did he walk you home junow? cos daddy saw you guys walking.
me: yup. he sent me home. i saw daddy too!
MOM: why is he here?
me: ouh, i went over to his place to take his bag.
MOM: why must it be HIS bag?
me: dno?
MOM: go pack your undies now. i ironed them already.

LOL.

i love my baby boy oh so much!
gonna miss him alot lah.
but only 5 days.
right baby?
5 days is easy peasy.
you went for your NCC camps that time & your Mt Ophir expedition & SLE camp.
all those camps.
now its my turn.
muahaha!
gonna miss my girlfriends too.
but rose & faddy boy coming so i wont feel lonely (:
hugs.

to those 2 malaysians. GUFFAWS. take care of your belongins there.. Singapore got GSS run to Msia for what huh... dont spend too much & dont forget about us here! hints hints.

floorball today.
hoorah.
















thanks baby for cheering me up. really had fun with you junnow. esp in the bus.
maybe it was just the moodswings.

who said love is blind? blame the person.

ICICLES! red & blue. his colour & mine.

after tuition.

diligently solving stupid maths questions after spending the whole day at Sentosa. oh the irony.

i was super shagged. that explains my face.

BOOBOO!!

baby's new pencil box! MINE TOO!!!

baby during tuition

walking to mainland.

finally, a peacock. i was sick of seeing peahens.

orang batu giler.

me & faddy boy. tired of looking for the rest.