oh by the way, snap shots are up in snapblog.
delights for your eyes only.
& besides, there's nothing much to see lah.
its all our pictures.
nothing interesting.

today was a total bliss luh.
no school cos we dont take accountings (:

so had a movie date with darls.
caught the morning show of ICE AGE 2.
the show is darn cute & lame in a way.
but really nice.
you guys should go catch it yeah.
then walked from PS to Al-Falah & waited for prayers to end.
OH YAH!!
MY MOM FREAKED ME OUT THIS MORNING, REALLY.
oh man.
cos i promised her i'll help her with the chores today
& i was doing the laundry while downloading some stuffs.
& then she was like,
"eh cepat la abeskan kejer. nanti si orang tu kene pegi sembahyang smuer. nanti tak sempat"
im like.
WHAT?! i din even tell her who i was going out with.
scary.
anyways, after friday prayers, we head back to PS. lols.
no life.
walked all the way.
cheaper mode of transport.
& we met AGNES!!! with alvin, kanthan & raj!
yey! so happy to see them!
they were frm skl luh. & agnes, aiyo. poor thing lah she. went to skl for nothing.
anyways, had lunch at pizza hut.
yummy.
im so bloated.
ate so darn much.
i feel like a walking garbage, man.
after that we went over to esplanade to take a breeze.
the clouds were threatening rain luh.
but we're too busy cam-whoring.
i love your silly face lah darling.
& OH!! i bought my old cravings of CHOCOLATE COATED STRAWBERRIES.
sings *oh glorious fooooood* from ice age 2.
lols.
awhh.. i missed your hugs lah baby..
junnow was really filled with warmth & love (:
he sent me home & all.
& my mom is STILL freaking me out.
i was uploading the photos & editing bits here & there & she was like,
standing behind me lah.
luckily i was editing my own photos
& she was like grinning lah
& i pulled her away from the room
& she was like, show me more pictures of you eating the pizza lah.
im like, nonono... you cannot see....
& she was still grinning when she left my room.
oke. freaky..

ps. i really enjoyed today.
free from exam stress & workload.
away from SCs & benny lim.
i finally had you all to myself today (:
i wanna be that greedy everyday.
cos im kidnapping you tmr too.
& we'll train up oke?
love you baby boy.

ahh..bad bad bad cramps.
its so horrible please.
anyways, i finally had time to continue reading The Da Vinci Code. its been like, eons? oh gosh.
oh. i dozed off after that & my whole school life flashed passed me.
i thought i was gonna die!
& i just have the drift to just blog abt my past skl life.
which is a boredom (:
HOOORAH!
pri 1-3
normal nerdy pri skl kiddo who knows nuts about anything else other than science, maths, malay, eng, social studies, health education. joined netball & started enjoying it. started with my passion for speed on tracks. became the lead actress in Thumbellina in pri2 for a play in skl. my first major role in drama (: my hopscotch & skipping days.
pri4
got selected to be one of the skl's prefects.
pri5-6
got into EM1 stream & became Assistant Head Prefect for a year & got kicked out cos i kept a kittten in the PA system. how lame. entered nationals for tracks. burning passion for speed. got 4th in nationals 100m. but moma accidentally threw away my trophy when we moved.
sec1-2
nothing interesting happened lah. joined drama cos of my interest in language. but netball had been my passion. got 1st for interhouse. tracks is still burning. clinched many golds for individuals. rejected the offer to join the councillors.
sec3-4
met him & many things started happening after that. met many people tt i shouldnt haf trusted.
got influenced by alot of things. met aidah & veron, we became really close. he flew off on 13oct & things changed. fought with alot of girls because of him. yucks. played tonnes of pranks on siti kurus. lols. sentosa mania since 15. yeys! was chosen by the principal to set up an Entrepreneurship Club. first time initiated a formal meeting in collaboration of NP abt setting up business with Carrefour. & im the marketting manager at the age of 15. business was a success. was chosen by the principal again to set up the IDEAS club & my team set up a cafe cum a kiddy pets corner in skl. drama syf.. became one of the lead.
O levels was super fun. we skated & rollerbladded in skl instead of studying & we picked jambus with Ms Lee. studied in the staff rm & we played pretend to be certain tchrs. had drama bbq & became close to sazli & abel & bullied all my juniors (: bliss.
1st 3 mths
decided to waste time in MI. dragged my beloved sis wimme (: bt i hated the skl so much. so run down & im a fussy girl. wanted to quit skl la. met WFACkers incl isk. first talked to him when he disturbed me during lecture. i was sleeping right infront of the teacher & he commented on me la. i dont like him initially cos he's like a snob luh. hahaa. then first time calling him to ask abt maths & it was the most embarrassing phonecall ever!
then he started calling me at nights & talked all the way til 4-5am. & we often doze off during breaks & lectures & the rest thought sth was fishy. but we acted as if we dont knw each other in skl lah.
dozed off together alot of times on the phone lah. he sang & played the guitar to me on the phone & the first time i went out with him was when he asked me out for help to study & also buy a birthday gift for his girlfriend, then. & the next time we went out was during poly open house. morning all the way til 11pm. the last part was super funny. esp the train incident. he called me shrek lah. whatever. we went to the airport to study bt ended up talking & eating. he sent me to s'goon & we went separate ways.
met him on a particular sunday after he went swimming with her to walk a super long way to ahgong's house to detorn the roses. stayed there til night but ahgong sent me home instead.
& the first time i went swimming with him. OMG. i simply refuse to enter the pool until he took off his shirt. he was so shy!! & that day was the first day he slept on me.

got back results. was a disappointment lah. wanted to go poly. but i dont knw why i stayed.

now.
life is stagnant.
i love the people around me
& missing others as well.
esp WFACkers.

i am totally ignoring didi.
that boy.
sucha coward.
anyways, my cold war with dad is over.
i think.
i smsed him my apologies.
i know it seems insincere but im just too scared to face him & talk to him lah.
im still wondering why arent i scared of him when i screamed at his face.
tsk.
sucha disappointment.
anyways, my CT is going from bad to worse.
thank God tmr is my last day of torture.
econs. econs. econs.
i hate econs.
i hate maths.
i hate management.
i hate gp.
i hate malay.
i love shopping.
i love my girlfriends.
i love my boyfriend.
i love the sun.
i love th sand.
i love the sea.
i love sleeping.
i want to sleep!
i refuse to talk about my horrendous papers.
it totally makes no sense in comparing answers after the paper lah.
if u wanna compare wimme, compare during exams.
so i can change.
im not tryna be a cheater or a loser here.
it just dont make any sense to me.
thats all.
after all, so what if your answers are the same?
they might mean, same mistakes.
or otherwise.
you wouldnt know
urgh forget it
i havent had ample sleep nowadays & my dark circles are killing me.
_________________
on a much lighter note, i spent more than 6hours over at darls house.
i cooked pasta!
for his family & all of us.
then rachy, hid & alvin came over to study (:
& we ended up playing a trick on alvin.
who ask him to sleep so much.
haha.




ps. i love the way we are (:
starloads of hugs & smucks.

yes, ive been doing alot of thinking about my rebelliousness.
i OUGHT to apologise to my dad for screaming at him.
& my nenek, altho i did it implicitly.
but still i was screaming at everyone in the house.
ive YET to apologise to all of em tho.
im still sore..
for no good reason.
ive been really contemplating about my outrage last 2 days
it din only disappointed me but also others
especially my mom
she talked to me but i simply refused to listen
& gave her a cold shoulder
im just not in the mood to be nagged at
why am i so stubborn!?

"we made a mistake by pampering you so much when you're young. especially being the middle child...u received extra special attention from us. now that ure under so much stress due to what i believe, lack of attn cos all our attns are diverted to ur little brother. remember that you're all big now, you're gonna be an adult in a few years time. but i find that all of you grew up so fast. i din really get to relish your childishness."

touched.
& i think something is wrong with me.
it is everytime i say that.
sigh.
ive yet to secure my 20 marks for my malay.
& i din read up for GP.
erh..
im feeling so mentally drained lah.
there's 15 more peribahasas to go.

you can do it julie!
im so in the mood for malay right now.
so hopefully it'll last til tmr!
insyaallah.
i am so broke right now.
i owe darls so much alr.
must pay him back sooooooon!

oh yes.
just in the drift to blog.
im taking a break by the way, not procrastinating.
procrastination is my weakness.
i think i'll take eons to forgo that habit.
horrible.
talking abt horrible things, i found out several horrible stuffs that seemed horrible.
duh.

• fad's eyecandy that wears PINK shoes. [turnoff for me]
• my hair colour is getting too obvious
• mr az caught me for having my skirt shorter than 4 fingers above knee
• im demotivated
• the burger ramly tt i ate junw wasnt satisfying
• im not losing weight
• i need to go to the hospital again

horrible horrible.
i dont wanna see the gynae again lah. & i need to get either that hair mascara or another hair dye to cover up my colour. raj saw my hair from afar & he kept on digging me on it.
& i cant rmbr who commented to me, "what kind of a first lady are you??!" oke. i wont deny that i felt insulted. but i think its true lah. im not putting up a good example to the others. if i continue like this i'll just be dragging isk down from his position. it's oke. ive made plans to change. hair dye next month & new set of uniform on mon (: skirt with 4 fingers above knee!!

i feel so goody two shoes.
& me & isk getting contacts next mth too. & im gna get my trg gears ready soon. new tracks & dry fit tee. & more swimming session with isk. & oh, ive yet to go beaching with agnes & swimming with the girls. we've got so many plans. but exams comes first.

major bummer.

dad cancelled the plans to Australia in june.
so i can go thailand for the CIP overseas trip.
hoorah.
oke. im feeling better now.
dad's home frm bowling alr.
must go & nag at him for spoiling my mood.
guffaws.

im so fucking pissed with my dad. AGAIN.
i dont see the need for him to change the damn computer again.
like what the fuck lah.
nothing is wrong with it please
& all my work stuffs is in there.
wah lao.
my pictures, our pictures, & our videos.
fuck man.
like since he couldnt get thru my password must take the computer away?
what crap is that?!
urgh.
utterly pissed.
______________________
i couldnt sleep well for the past few days.
i kept on waking up for no reason & everytime i woke up, i'll glance on the watch.
nonsense.
went to study with darls at mac
& i had my favourite hotcakes.
i totally dig hotcakes with TONNES of margarine & maple syrup please!!
yummeh.
then darl's moma called & told him to stdy at home.
so went over to his house!
played with his kitty & his nephew for a while
& not forgetting SIMS2 NIGHTLIFE!!!
hoorah.
addictive please.
& i took a nap at his sofa after doing maths.
i was so mentally drained.
then we went to braddel heights to support our skl's jazz band
too bad the crowd wasnt as supporting.
all old ahpeks & nonyas.
no appreciation for modern music
& the karaoke contest was HORRENDOUSLY EAR-WRENCHING please
that it started to rain.
-guffaws-
i love my daughter.
yes, you rury.
i love you!!!
tell hafidz that & he'll whack me during fb trgs. lols.
its so nice to see her in skl in the mornings & we'll exchange hugs & a kiss on the cheek.
no... not the MINAH style.
lol.
major turnoff.
ooooooh. MET SHEARER THE OTHER DAY!!!
she shocked me!!!
i thought isk was flirting with another girl when i was approaching to him.
& it happens to be my long lost daughter.
miss you buttloads luh!
& the missing one now is syida.
haiyo.
so busy with GPA.
____________
i need tonnes of retail therapy.
SOOOOON!!!
i need alot of things to buy.
i need my money tree.
but i need to study now!!
i must study now!!!
AGNES!!!
I THINK I'LL FAIL.
how how howww!!!!

PMS-ing





take cover people.
thanks for MOTIVATING me dad.
i knw ure reading my blog, so i'd like to take this opportunity to tell you that you really spoilt my mood to study for my upcoming CT. you're really a gd dad. u nvr fail to think abt yourself. & ONLY yourself. sorry i threw tantrums & threw things at you junnow.
you really tested my patience.
thanks alot.
i had a good cry which rejuvenated me thoroughly.
ure appreciated.

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward.
You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

The Real YouHere is the analysis:
You are a very serious person.
You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. Y
ou prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys.
You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.
You don't really care about other people's feelings.
You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself.
You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well.
You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.
You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well.
People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves.
You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice.
You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible.
You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light.
You do want to be taken seriously, right?
Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person.
Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

What's your personality love style?:
Love at first sight is your style. You are not fussy about who you fall for, and often there seems to be no rational reason for you deciding to love someone, it just happens and you'll follow your heart. When you do fall for someone, you fall completely. Your love is somewhat child-like, or what people like to call "puppy love". While following your heart is important, you should also remember to use your head occasionally.

What type of personality do you have?:
A confident person
You like to do activities on your own.
You are confident and that's why you don't care what other people think about you.
You are ambitious and often worry about your future.
You don't like to be a follower because you like to be independent - this means you are always trying your best to be the leader.
You are attractive to other people because of your confidence and intelligence.

You value your friendships: 45%
You value your friendships quite a lot but you don't like to show your feelings to others.
You would rather keep your feelings to yourself than share them with your friends.
You might get a pleasant surprise if you are more open about caring for people - they will probably let you know that you're special to them, too.

the previous post has been deleted due to some personal reasons.
if you happen to read it, please keep to yourself.
alot of things been happening.
alot.
too much.







good morning.

i hurt my back.
AGAIN.
so annoying.
like, i hafta cut down on running & sports.
urgh.
just when im having fun.
did my timetable for revision.
im praying hard that i wont procrastinate.
anymore at least.
yup.


it's just that.
today didnt end well.
my back hurts waaay too much.
owch.

morning people.
the match with VS ytd was fun.
girls against boys.
they were tough luh
theyre very gooooood.
as usual, our ex coach was there.
this time i hid from him.
haha.
well, i tried all means to play rough today.
like really body match.
i rammed so many little boys down.
(:
& esp the poor goalie
his expression when i fell onto him was so authentic.
like being ass-jabed.
hahahaaa..
im still VERY shagged from ytd's match
but im going for a run with darls at 8am later.
ahhhhhh.
oh anyways, my darling-other-half-late-by-2-days came by to watch the match
(:
wheee...
hug hug hug
showered after the match & went out for dinner with the girls
& i saw Mrs Rauf~
we hugged in the middle of nowhere luh.
heeee..
so nice to meet her. kinda miss her.
great teacher(:

loves <3

after swimming. still fat.

the view from punggol end. very windy!!

today's kinda fun.
fun's a very subjective word.
so it depends.
went swimming with darls in the morn
(:
went amk jus in time to get my HOTCAKES!!
the woman in line beside me was complaining to the cashier that she just saw the hotcakes a while ago but now its gone.
HAHAH! too bad woman!
i ate sooo fast.
yummy.
hee im sucha glutton.
anws, rushed back to skl for trg.
gary was smiling at me cos i was late.
he called me AH SOH.
whatever lah.
he was like, julie!!! thn whn i turned, he was like, haha i rmbred ur name!
so lame lah he.
then the boys have friendly with RP.
& our ex-coach, Amir Hamzah was there.
he still remembers me!!
THAT'S BAD!
SUPER BAD!!
he was like teasing me & flirting around please.
yucks.
the debrief was funny.
cos coach was excited of my hot pink toe socks.
he was like, EH YOUR SOCKS SO FUNNY. PUT SO IN UNTIL YOUR FINGERS COME OUT.
his command of english is kinda low.
but understandable lah.
hees.
& he still buys student meals from MCDs.
lols.
tak padan pendek.
went toh tuck with darls aft that to find my missing shoes.
it was still there at LT2 luh. but no key.
waited for 2hrs for darl's Faculty Leader talk to end
i was so darn bored pls.
but we had a great fun spitting on each other together.
its not spit spit as in "PI-TUI!!" that kind.
it's just speaking with gallons of saliva wasted.
im so dehydrated now.



loveloves.

ahhh..had econs lesson ytd.
then we went gai-gai
& met so many ppl along the way(:
met shawny who made me $20 richer.
haha
then met py & friends.
heee..
went punggol end & sat there for awhile
whilst SOMEONE decided to strip in public.
haha.. ive got evidence!
-guffaws-
took lil birdies' pixies too.
so adorable.
thn went tp to mamam.
ahgong called me luh.
he said he saw us while in the bus!
hee.. so coincidental.
thn went to the lib to do a lil revision.
i finally started on the first few topics for yr1's econs.
so slow.. i know.
im so freaking out lah.
we met a bet that im to win him for mgt.
insyaAllah.
i really look up to you for being so open to me.
esp when we share things abt our ex.
but i do tend to get a tad bit too jealous luh.
heee.
but then again, ytd was fun.
& yeah, he's just a bony figure.
you've got more BODY!
___________________

im so excited about today.
swimming!!!
then fb trg.
then run run runnnnn!!!
yeys.
my darling Aidah is back from thailand (:
miss her soooo much.

yey.
match with MJ was oke.
eventho the girls are so fucked up with coach.
im fine with it lah.
i'd rather not let him pressure me.
he knows my name finally yah.
& i seriously feel like slapping his face if he gives me his sly smile again.
haiyo.
i cant wait for thursday.
it's activities day!
bet it will ba a super duper tiring day
morning swim with him, fb trg, 2.4 click & talks.
whee.
im getting $20 richer tmr.
hee. i sound like a cheapo.
SHAWN!! MUST WAKE UP LAH.
LAZY BUM.
ooowwwww.....
my poor aching feet.
& i nd to see my doc soon.
my back's hurting again.

lunch & dinner with him was great.
was still tickled by the indian prawn.
GUFFAWS.
kanthan, dont feel insulted oke.
we werent discriminating anyone, REALLY!!

I......... MUST ......... REFRAIN ................. MYSELF ........ FROM ........ GOING ........... ONLINE!!!!!!!!
SO......... ADDICTIVE ............... PLEASE .............!!!
I......... NEEEEEED ............ TO .......... REVISE ........ MY YEAR ONE'S WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!

fucken shit.
stop procrastinating julie, for pete's sake!!!!!!

went out early in the morn just to check out that service
so i guess darls wont be taking his motorcycle license so soon huh
if not i'll get free ride to skl everyday.
our new skl is so darn big please
with TONNES of stairs
-groans-
anyways, met toh tuck's student vp
went town after that
got my new set of uni from shaw center
& we watched FD3.
omg. damn gory please.
alas i finally finished watching all 3 FDs.
complete my sadism
more happy tree friends~
wheees
& i din scream at all (:
that's an accomplishment
went paragon & had difficulty deciding for Ben & Jerry's or others
we wanted to binge actually
but im really getting fat
so we decided to settle on Starbucks while i teach him
saw many deyians but i was ignoring most of them
sorry ppl
saw some rgs friends too
but i looked away on purpose
sigh
i wasnt really in a mood to chance upon anyone right now
went window shopping for my trg gears
& believe it or not im really excited to start my trg (:
which is sooooon
ooohh im addicted to the super sour skittles my sis gave me
-squirms-

HOI!! YOU MUST TAKE CARE OKE. DONT BE SO DIRTY MINDED & THINK OF ALL THOSE THINGS LAH. CLEAR UP YOUR MIND SO THAT YOU CAN CONCENTRATE IN YOUR STUDIES. IF YOU NEED ANY HELP, YOU CAN TRY ME. BUT I WONT ASSURE YOU I'LL BE OF ANY GREAT HELP COS I MYSELF HAVE DIFFICULTIES IN MY STUDIES. I JUST WANT YOU TO DO WELL IN YOUR PROMOS LIKE ALWAYS. YOU'RE MY WINNER. MY WARRIOR. MY MR INCREDIBLE.
LOVELOVES.

Nike is the Greek personification of victory. She can run and fly at great speed. She is a constant companion of Athena. Nike is the daughter of Pallas and Styx and the sister of Cratos, Bia, and Zelus. She was represented as a woman with wings, dressed in a billowing robe with a wreath or staff.
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just plain bored.
was doing some extra reading for the TIMES mag.
greek mythology.
interesting article.
i simply skipped all the politics stuffs.
AHHH I LOVE GP!!

kudos to my budak boncet for completing the Legs & Paddles race (:
asked mike if he was there too & he said he was there.
he got in top 20.
WAHHH.
he still complained that it sucks.
aiyah. stop putting yourself under stress oke.
triathlete so?
no need to boast can?
i know you're very fit.
it's just that you're too cooped up with your A's
that you din have enough time to train up.
& your school is so near the beach please.
less than 10mins walk.
you can train kayaking like everyday.
haiyoh.
oh yeah, congrats on getting distinction for your chinese.
so much for sucking in chinese yah.

ahh.. my eyes are swollen.
i dont knw why.
anyways, praying hard that isk will make it thru his
Legs & Paddles race.
i wanna train up with him so that i'll join with him nxt yr
hahaa..
not merely cos there's lotsa hot hunks with great bods,
but i must keep an eye on him
there's lotsa hot babes too.
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IM ELATED.
totally.
heeee rose (:
at last i dont feel so threatened.

oke.
ive uploaded most of ytd's & today's pix at my photoblog.
yup. my microfilm.
today's so tiring.
went out at EIGHT AM.
in hope to cover all 3 unis.
well we did.
nth much gained.
cos we were too tired to ask ard
spent so much time with him.
(:
esp sleeping in the bus.
nearly 12hours away frm home.
bliss-filled.
we were laughing our guts out at hg int
cos he said sth with no link
& i just laughed at him cos he laughed too hard
& we ended up having abs.
lols. lame.
___________
10th march.
the campfire was like a club man.
like everyone was showing their moves (:
i was grooving with isk lah.
only that he kept on trampling on my feet.
pisses me off so i just stopped dancing cos my feet were sore alr.
GARNET WARRIORS WON THE 2ND PLACE.
ONYX WON THE FIRST.
which is alright.
isk was really sweet.
i was searching for him during the campfire MI dance
cos the emcee said find a partner of the opp sex to dance with
i was holding rose's hand & then
someone just grabbed me by my waist & pulled me back
& he got this guy, Aaron, to dance with rose. lols.
arhh..
til today i woke up with our Garnet cheer repeating in my head.
GARNET !!GONJENG GONJENG! GARNET !!WOOH!!
sounds a lil crude tho. but it was still a blast.
my voice is so scratchy now i sound like Ramly Sarip.
haha.
oh talking abt Ramly.
i had Ramly burger junw.
drools.
& i had HUGE CHEESY DOGS.
drools more.
not as big as the one isk brought for me the other day.
it totally looks like a penis please.
ZOMG.
damn gross.
ewk.
& JP is so darn boring.
not gna step there anymore.

ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR LEGS & PADDLES COMPETITION OKE?
winning isnt everything so it's oke if u lose
as long as u tried ur best & u gained experience
(:
i'll pray for ur safety.
i'll prolly die first if i were to join some competition that
requires me to run 5clicks & kayak 2.5km
in the first place, i'll stay away from such competitions!
haha.
& i getting FATTER.
isk pampered me so much alr.
he prepared dinner for me (:
& aft tt, i ate some more of his mom's cooking
& he served me with DANICH FULL CREAM MILK.
im fat already (:
OREO IS SO BIG & NAUGHTY ALREADY.
& i played SIMS2 NIGHTLIFE.
my sims got a car alr.
but he got cheated by this damn bitch.
i wanna play againnnnn....

FUNDAY AHOY!!
it was a blast luh.
totally.
i reached home nearly midnight cos we were taking our own sweet time walkin by the river (:
will blog agn ltr luh.
open houses.

stupid fucker commenting about BASIC COURTESY & BSIC GIRLFRIEND RULES.
well no one wrote a book about it nor gave a lecture about it
wont even bother lah.
my life.
anyways today's kinda draaaagy.
rose, agnes, raudah took early leave aft the first break.
sinyee withdrew.
bisnow withdrew.
its like our population is getting smaller & smaller.
urgh.
me & hidayah skipped malay.
we wanted to come in late
but got too caught up in our chatting session.
we were talking abt our lives.
.............dots..................
i nearly teared.
she nearly teared too loh.
so sweet.
hee my sugar girl (:
sentosa tmr.
am i looking forward?
went too many times already lah.
but this time its with another pool of ppl
my fun ppl (:
amazing race
campfire
bbq
dance
mi dance
isk asked me to dance with him tmr night.
so sweeeeeeeet.
& oh syikin, ure not forgotten my dear.
pls take care k.
i kept on dancing to THAT song omg.
like, techno?!?!
wth.
joget sembarang merepek merepak ah.
i realised i learnt to control my jealousy.
but not my hatred for some homo sapiens.
nevermind.
i was so tired i just plopped into slumberland.
just woke up yey.
went out with him aft lessons to have our lunch cum dinner
smiles smiles smiles smiles smiles smiles smiles smiles smiles smiles.
imu.

A little learning is a dangerous thing
Drink deep a taste not the Prierian Spring
There shallow draughts intoxicate the brain
But drinking largely sobers us again
Alexander Pope.

ah. my body is aching pls.
i was very disappointed with my timing for my mock.
tho i was quite consistent.
huh. stupid.
anyways, i was feeling kinda e m p t y today
cos i din have my pe tee wimme to run
& i was wearing darl's tee.
baby smell
my lucky charm
& by htp, most of our clsmates went tohtuck for cca ori
i was too lazy to even bother luh.
but i wanted to...
i nearly took the bus to tohtuck bt someone say there's no need
cos he'll be going home with my eyecandy
but i still miss him alot.
a little too much to be exact
i seem to lost my calming notion
im in total need for comfort & affection
sigh.
miss you baby.
rest well.
today is like the first day since january that i came home in the afternoon.
& i still had the time to take a loooooooong nap.
sleep luh.
im still tired.
tmr more mocks.
urgh.
SHIT LAH.
agnes darling, hope you're feeling alright oke? miss you babe. & SO SORRY FOR TELLING MR RAJ ABT COMING FRIDAY!!!
hidayah, my sugar girl, please take care of YOUR KNEE ait? & say hello to the little alien in your tummy.
isk darls, dont skip your meals pls. altho u wanna lose all those babs, skipping ur meals wont solve ur bab issues. & u nd all ur daily supplements & nutrients. not to mention ALL your energy as OIC for JAE.



i feel so shitty for blabbering to mr raj.
stupid julie
period.

finally i printed the lecture notes & sup notes for the cls.
& im quite happy with it.
included a diagram too.
nvm.
nt impt.
ouch. my back hurts...
better back-up all my files.
ninites ppl.

this is like my first EUPHORIC DAY since beginning of skl.
heeee.
like one after another please.
i wont ask for more.
ive smiled too much today (:
i dno where to start..
oke. let's go chronologically.
i did not understnd econs.
i never did luh.
nvm.
& my first time i slept in mgt lessons.
i think its the MPR luh.
got negative effects on me.
anyways, the only happy parts happen during & after break.
i sat with my eyecandy for break.
melts melts.
told rury abt it luh.
heeee.
but isk was there too. so heee...
i gave him a super huge hug luh. missed him so much.
was busy with orientation & the seat beside me felt so empty.
i realised how happy i was to see him once in a while.
haha. din mean tt i got sick & tired of you lah
chances are very slim please.
anws, the checkup ytd was oke.
got more doses of med.
the doc warned me tt the new med tt i was given will make me FAT.
water retention more likely yah..
eeee. gross right.

ANYWAYS back to my happy life.
haha..
i got to sit with my eyecandy. whee.. he stayed.
the other one went MJ.
boooos.
& guess what coach told rajiv?!
that i look like A
thn rajiv told me luh.
i was like shocked & speechless.
yes, A is another one of my eyecandy
anyway im got gatal oke.
i just got two gule-guler mate (:
like hello? i think he's too short to see me lah.
but then again...
i gloat (:
HOORAAAHHH
thn aft saying tt he kept on stealing glances & smiling at me.
then ive got floorball jerseys
yey..
bobby keep on insisting we take same sizes for top & bottom.
but ASS bottoms are SUPER SMALL PLEASE.
like ppl with no butts.
but i can fit into it.
haha ive got NOT MUCH BUTTCHEEKS.
lalalaaa..
i was so happy.
i taught my darling to play floorball.
see, im sucha darling.
i was puting my arms ard him frm behind & holding the stick with my hands on his
& guiding the stick.
& bending my legs to his legs so that he'll bend too
ahhh.. adrenaline rush
i can still smell him.
baby smell.
he waited for me to end floorball.
im more motivated to practice my swings & shots at home now
i'll use my dad's golf clubs.
hahaa..
wait.
oke scrap that.
i dont wanna bring it up
& spoil my euphoria

we went home together.
told him to join fb (:
gave him a well-deserved body massage
he's happy.
im euphoric.
& not to mention fb trg.
its like WOOOOOOOOOH.
we went heartland & TP before trg.
& window shopped.
& adding on to my euphoria, im eating VANILLA ICE CREAM with butterscotch.
with a SPATULA again (:





im a happy happy girlfriend.
i made new friends in fb too (:
FLOORBALL ROCKS LAH.
but my bf rocks more (:
LOVES.

uhhhhh.
aidah i really need you.
i need all my girls.

i slept at 4.30am this morning.
i just couldnt get myself to drift off to slumberland.
im just stuck awake.
so i decided to binge myself to sleep.
no such thing but who the fuck cares
i had my vanilla ice cream with whatever junks i dumped in it
& i ate in the dark
under the moonlight & stars
haiyah. singapore very stingy luh.
stars also got abit only.
anyways,
the night was so windy so i just sat outside, enjoying the early morning breeze
i was like sitting on the grasspatch with a huge bowl of vanilla ice cream
& i ate it with a spatula.
(:
being alone always makes me sad
cos being alone means there's noone by my side
& without anyone to talk to,
i tend to talk to myself
& i'll always reflect when im alone
i dont like to reflect
cos the sins ive done to many never fail to spoil my mood
& thus makes me binge even more
huuuhh.
seee... im feeling superbly horrigible now.
my alarm rang at 430 when i just got into bed. like wth
so i decided to take a quick eyeshut for 5mins
& then i grabbed my baby eeyore & fell deep into slumberland
i woke up only at 11am.
HAH.
ive got my hospital appointment later so nvm
got excuse
besides, i din do my maths, my gp & my malay essay.
so might as well dont bother to step into skl
URGH. what the fuck is wrong with me?!?!
why am i being so negative.
fuck lah.
urgh moodswings moodswings moodswings.
anws, first year rookies going for orientation today.
thank God i passed that stage.

oh yah. momma was so evil to me.
she took a snapshot of me when i was sleeping
cos my cat was sleeping with me too
& she usually took the whole bed & only leave ABIT of space for me
but today she decided to share the bed with me
her head was dangling off the bed
& my head was already on the bedside table
& her legs were on my tummy
with one of them pushing me off the bed
inch by inch
i was pushing her also
but she just refused to move
cos she dug her claws into my comforter.
aiyo.

rose, ive decided to NOT pay attention or even bother about Afiq or that Hilfy or what's his name. it's just making me confuse. excessive eyecandy oggling will make me blind.
im gonna get contacts soon luh. uh oke no link.

jus came back from the sem today.
i skipped madrasah.
hahaha. of cos my parents knew abt it oke.
anws we decided to go to the career fair AGAIN cos we totally had nth to do
darls wanted to take some brochures for his bro
& im looking for a suitable overseas uni
but i decided to collect sweets instead.
hahaha
we checked out the SAF fair too.
i had my eyes totally bleached.
uniformed personnel = eyecandies galore.
but with exceptions lah.
darls had his eyes washed at the career fair already (:
so its fair.
hahaha.
dragged darls to B&J's to eat.
& introduced him to his very first waffle coned choc chip cookie dough.
which he fell in love with.
kudos to me.
another B&J's maniac.
i had my Dublin Mudslide.
yummers please.
we had dessert first then lunch.
weird ey.
nvm.
went town to eat & treated him lunch
he was so tired.
he slept on my shoulders nearly thruout the whole journey back.
poor baby (:
anws, i saw some UNEXPECTED ppl at the career fair.
dogs.
must lodge a report to SPCA alr.
stray dogs loitering ard.
bad bad bad bad baaaad thing.
i met my senior in town & my pri skl friend at Aunt Anne's.
& mike just told me he saw me at Chinablack.
i wasnt even there. hello?
altho i was in town.
i think he's hallucinating.
too much booze.
& serene IM-ed me asking whether i was anywhere near Paradigm.
she said she saw me with a chinese guy & i was wearing togatop with ultra mini skirt.
ZOMG.
i think she's having a major hallucination.
paradigm is a mat's club man.
ive got my maths & essay calling on to me.
thank God im done with mgt.
but i think i din do a good job for it.
sulk.

pretty babes

i really love this picture

wedding banquet

pouts

babyface (:

my yummylicious Dublin Mudslide!!

sunday loves

saturday loves

eyecandy's going MJ.
sad right.
sigh lahhh
ros made me so jealous lah.
hmff.
not fair lah youuuu.
pouts
kelly is really scaring me with her tarot reading mania.
she's been reading it for me.
& i din even ask her to read for me ANYMORE.
its really freaking me out cos she's asking stupid qns.
wait,
i just lost my drift to blog.
i swear i was thinking alot abt blogging but it jus slipped off my mind.
oke nvm.
this mee siam pontianak person decided to put her url
like who the hell is she?
i dont even knw you, hello?
at least put ur name & introduce urself when tagging
basic courtesy, excuse me.
i dont entertain pontianaks or other nameless creatures.

just came back from the career sem.
suntec was jam packed with earthlings man.
me & isk were like pushing our way thru.
cos the area was un-walkable.
oh early morning hadta take our maths testS.
the retest & another test
one is enough to kill me
i gave up halfway thru the 2nd set of tests.
i really nd to buck up on maths lah

nvm abt that.
i roughly have my future pathways sought
either psychology or sociology or the armed forces.
all inter-twined.
im gna major in child psychology or sports psych.
& most prolly biz psych too.
was checking out Monash Uni.
& MDIS.
& i found out frm PATH that requirements to get a degree in psych
is 2 O lvl passes [eng & emaths] or 3 A lvl passes
min age to enrol : FIFTEEN FRICKING YEARS OLD.
like wth.
so easy?!
but still must go thru higher dip to get degree.
might as well go uni to get the degree.
so wont waste my life
will be going agn tmr
cos isk accompanied me with my psychology mania
so tmr i'll be accompanying him with his army mania
i had airforce in my mind too or navy
but too early to decide
dad was thinkin of sending me overseas to further my studies
to US cos i'll be subsidised by the embassy
but he decided for the better
cos he said im still that little girl whose riding my tricycle ard the house
he cant bear to send me off so far just to study
he said im too young to enter uni.
he said im rushing my studies.
but its oke.
i trust local uni
i trust my parents.
& mom was excited abt me going to uni
she was the one reading the brochures & all tt.
i havent read them at all
didi was excited too with all the brochures
cos he get to snip them & make them to confettis.
-__-"
the seminars are really enlightening.
but not the career fair.
its tad bit taught.
a bore, actually.


i missed looking at the stars with you
did i change & scared you?

I THINK IM DIEING SOON.
really, im dead serious.
vaney read my palms & she said yes.
kelly read the tarot cards for me & the ans is yes.
& i was swepted by the worst case of cramps
im still doubling over by it.
sigh.
isk's gonna have a very long life.
long live the warrior.
im still not ready for the 2 tests tmr.
i flunked my maths test by 4/25.
nice number.
sure die early luh.
i went for fb tdy but was forced to go home by bobby & long-er
but bobby is STILL annoying.
-rolls eyes-
terence brought merringues tdy & hid pronounced it as mer-reen-gy
SO CUTE!
i brought the choc fudge cake momma baked.
they loved it (:
had tonnes of cakes tdy
mr raj bought a cake for the jan & feb babies
& we saboed ALL the babbies.
incl SOHLAIMAN. lol.
glares at rachy
it's SUUUULAIMAN, darling.
HAHA nvm.
ive got a LITTLE confession.
no, make that A FEW confessions.

• i was elated whn i found out my eyecandy is staying in MI (:
• ive got a new eyecandy in fb. his name starts with an A.
• no, its not ANNAS.
• i actually forgot to keep some cake for isk
• i missed oreo & SIMS2 NIGHTLIFE pls - no time for leisure

i thought he was a jerk luh.
here i was, doubling over bearing the pain
& he was doing NOTHING to make me feel an inch better
but later on in the bus he gave me a very melting sweet hug
which made me a mile better
so much better please
cuddles makes me happy

& i was like explaining the pain to him luh
which i professionally put it in words (:

& OOOOH im so excited!!
chris lee sent me a mail about meeting up to discuss our schedule for drama
yupps.
i was happily typing informally & realised i was replying a mail to a tchr.
he ended the mail so professionally.
CONFIDENTIALITY: If this email has been sent to you by mistake, please notify the sender and delete it immediately. As it may contain confidential information, the retention or dissemination of its contents may be an offence under the Official Secrets Act.

i feel so tardy.
dont feel like doing my tutorials at all.
oh dear..
tardy tardy tardy
was just reading agnes' blog.
yah.. a girl can never have enough clothes
i went for a mini window shopping trip junnow with darls
& i got sooo tempted to just blow my money away
yikes
dangerous can
cos this is only 2nd day of the month.
so that means i just got my allowance.
uh oke nvm that
was watching BRING IT ON AGAIN junw
was quite oke. cheerleading
suddenly it reminded me of the dance that im in
saddad din inform us anything abt it
lousy vice prez. hahaha jk lah
hope i wont get sued by his SAP lah.
OH i forgot to thank Mr Raj for being so nice to me junow durg econs
(:
great man
i was having a bad headache since last night so i was like so groggy in skl lah
& he sent isk to buy me a cup of hot milo
so sweet
i mean the milo, not isk.
bleh.
he's not sweet :P
& terence is funny lah
we were talking about COOKING
he said i'll be a good chef.
fat hope
im too lazy to bother to cook
& im definitely NOT gna cook CURRY for my dear isk
i'll torture him
but terence taught me how to cook curry
nvm, i'll PURPOSELY forget abt it (:
& AIDAH DARLING, get ready to be kidnapped alright.
get ready your ropes & gag & i'll write a ransom letter to your parents

love julie (:

momma baked chocolate fudge cake with extra hot fudge toppings.
ZOMG.
i was salivating please.
still am anyways.

haaa.
skl just ended lah.
bored to my bones in the lib nw.
listening to blue & yellow.
love that song to butts.
with junlong, raj & mingfa.
they said they wanna stdy bt end up playing games.
haha boys.
skl was a drag.
the rachs, raudah & ros cabot-ted gp junw.
naughty lazy girls.
guffaws.
i cannot stand it lah
Raj was like making all those "fighting" sound effects when playing the game with long-er
all those:
arbish
boooosh
krrr
oophf
bishhh
lol.
like my little brother seh.
i wanted to do my work actually.
but i decided to procrastinate ABIT only.
for a teeny while
the week is gonna get more packed than ever please.
omg i just cannot handle it anymore
everytime i reach home i'll be too tired to even touch my tutorials & read thru my year 1's work.
die.
common test is like so soon lah oke.
my weekends are so packed too.
going for the University open houses & the career fair at suntec.
already planning my future.
if i screwed up my A levels, which i pray that i will NEVER will hopefully..
i will go NAFA & take up STAGE ARTS.
yup, drama.
but if i did exceptionally well for my A's & i can qualify for SMU, i'll take child psychology.
if not. well, that's why im going for the university open houses.
gonna peep on what they major on
what interests me & what not.
& as for the career fair, its for my future career lah
planning to bring my sis along so that she can look look see see
but she got a new job already..
hoorah.. so yah
im just bored.
so dont mind the long & winding entry.
i was listening to my personal blog's song & suddenly i got so sad.
everything just rushed back to me.

& everything I have in this world
& all that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me
I can’t take another day without you
'Cause, baby, I could never make it on my own
I've been waiting so long just to hold you
& to be back in your arms where I belong
I'm sorry I can't always find the words to say
But everything I've ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

the only difference is that i havent been waiting for him so long just to hold him.
he caught me by surprise.
he just appeared in my life
& shadowed my path
& it seems that i couldnt push him away.
I guess I only see the truth through all this fear of living without you
all that happened between us is just a test to prove that love is nothing to play on.
its never a game
if its ever a game,
it wld never be a fun game.
dealing with fragile feelings of each other is not fun.
& i wld never "patch up" with anyone after a failed relationship.
i wldnt go in & outta love just like that.
cos i care too much.
i cared too much.
cared too much
too much,
too much that it hurts me.
sigh.
school's stressing both of us out & i dont want our relationship to burden us alright.
i hope we can take things lightly & just go on & on & on & on....
& til death do us part
(:
Just as long as I have you right here by me

got back our mgt test papers tdy.
i passed.
Alhamdulillah.
& i won isk AGAIN (:
im gna help him out in any ways i can.
cos i think SC is really taking too much of his time.
poor guy.
went out with him today to have our lunch.
i had my cravings fulfilled.
& had my vanilla yan yan (:
im (:
i slept throughout the journey home
& i dozed off on his shoulders.
so comfy.
sigh
so many problems going on.
i feel so short-changed.
& suffocated.
i need more than 24hrs a day.
24 is just not enough.
was late for skl today
& i was sweeping the ballroom till i got blisters on my finger.
annoying.
OH AGNES DARLING! hope you din screw you interview!! wishing for the best results darling, love loves.
& HIDAYAH DARLING, dont worry too much k. noone's hating you. cos i knw i dont. i simply love you please. i totally dig you to bits (: smile!
had a good chatting time with fad aft skl. we were TRYING to do our ulasan but just ended up talking. we had the whole 2nd lvl library to ourselves. so fun. talking & laughing.