omg.
i cannot stop laughing.
shant say why.
-guffaws-
watching American Pie now. but that's not why im laughing.
HAHAHA.
the weather was extremely bitchy today.
OMG. makes the lessons so draggy.
but we had 2 free periods (:
went for fb aft skl.
so let's talk about floorball today (:
DEAR ROSE SERVES AS MY MAIN MOTIVATION FOR FB FROM TODAY ONWARDS!
hugs.
she joined fb (:
see told u its fun.
it was for me.
but eventually i just got tired.
hilmi joined us for trg too.
& i got dragged into ravi's & kumar's & formed a line with em for the game
they're like the best of the best.
HELLO?!
wah lao.
& Alex tekan-ed me so much today durg drills
-wails-
Bobby is forever annoying.
diao me some more lah.
Long-er scored for the game today!
Raj too!
kudos to y'all.
but im happy that i scored FIVE times!
durg drills lah.
durg games fat hope sia.
im alws playing either forward or defence.
& since my line had only 3, we hadta run all over the court.
& fad got new stick seh.
must enter A divs alr.
must oke?
as for me, i dont feel like joining A divs.
but if im selected, which is so UNLIKELY, i'd be glad to commit.
& i badly need a pair of court shoes.
nd to send my x-trainers to the cobler too.
poor shoe.
i feel like going to skl in flip flops tmr.
my toes hurt & ive got blisters.
ARGH.
pain.
sulks.
im well off dead lah.
i havent finish reading my novel & book review is tomorrow???
sheesh.
where's my time management.

he fetched me frm trg & we wenta get his lil fat goldfishes for his Ayu to eat.
but i ended up bitting the goldfish.
haha.
it's so darn fat omg.
& we've stocked up our lockers with FOOD SUPPLIES:-
cup noodles!!

to isk.
ive just hosted a new song in my personal blog.
it's for you.
go listen k?
lovelovelove,
julie.

mondays are always draggy.
i woke up from the wrong side of the bed.
& what more, plus all the nightmares these past nights.
sleepless nights.
sigh.
life will never be the same anymore.
but im glad ive put up a brave front.
for our sake.
im willing.
im just willing.
sigh.
gonna have my maths test tmr.
not planning to study for it.
it's all Amaths. so hope my brain wont be a major bummer.
2periods wasted just like that.
PE LECTURE.
with us all geared up for PE in the auditorium.
so fun. GRUNTS.
haiyah.
there's so much things to do. so many things to revise.
my year one's work is still collecting cobwebs under my table.
horror.
need to shove them outta there asap.
common test coming!
argh.
im not ready.
common test coming still got pu2 fun day.
at SENTOSA SOMEMORE.
then BBQ at TOH TUCK.
damn far please.
& hafta travel home ourselves from there.
aiyah.
so troublesome.
& i know nuts abt the dance we're gonna collaborate with tohtuck counterparts.
like saddad anyhow write my name down for the dance.
so much for being the vice president.
can shove ppl ard.
sigh.



just wanna tell you that no matter how fresh we start our life together,
life just wont be the same for me.
but i still love & care for you.
i think you forgot what i said to you the other day when i broke down in school.
pls think thru oke.
take care.

my hospital bills just came.
ward - $420
daily treatment fee - $110.60
laborotary investigations - $44
x-ray investigations - $122.50
specialised investigations - $ 176
drugs/prescriptions/injections - $33.09
ward procedures - $50

all amounting to near 1k.
lucky AIA covered most of my costs.


sth horrible happened today.
sigh.
& people. its not my birthday.
wth?!
7more mths pls.
today's RAUDAH'S BIRTHDAY.
happy birth woman.
18years of wisdom plus many more to come.
hopefully.





just wanna tell you that a kiss wont heal a broken heart.
& silence wont piece together a torn paper heart.
my paper heart.
& your heart of stone.
that i cracked a million cracks.
i knw a thousand apologies dont mean a thing to you.
but a change is everything to me.
& it'll take all of me.

julie was absent today.

it was really a bore today.
totally.
i was munching on a bar of toblerone for breakfast.
& a pear for lunch
& fried rice with bacon for dinner.
altho dad bought dinner for us, i simply din have the mood to eat.
slept with my cat the whole day.
im feeling as tardy as her.
poor kitty.

went to visit my great granddad last night.
he looks healthy (:
alhamdulillah
he's responding really good to the medication.
saw Akbar & his friend at the same ward.

i was mostly babysitting those 2 rascals.
so cute.
there's this uncle that gave Zaki a pear.
& he din knw how to eat a pear.
he was licking it. & his lil bro snatched it frm him & started licking it too.
both of them took turns to lick the pear.
HAHA.
kids.
had pizza for dinner.
& was browsing FHM & Men's Health.
haha. im not a sicko oke.
me & my sis were just curious.
happens that those are the most boring-est mags ive ever flipped.
55degrees paris hilton please!
-guffaws-
& we never fail to ogle at all them hot bods yah.
-fans face-
uber hotness.

ey i din do anything the whole day leh.
boredom kills.
i should have forced myself to go to skl.
& i missed fb lah.
haiyo.
how to keep my commitment like that?
im croaking!
my throat felt as if its burning.
gosh.










aim: 2A's 3AO's
i can do it i can do it i can do it.
i scored 30/50 for my recent GP essay! bliss!
& i won darl on the last mgt test (:
beams.
it pays to have a clever boyfriend.
cos i'll be a more cleverer girlfriend.
i thought the only subjects i can win him is malay & mathsC.
but im wrong!!
heee..
ECONOMICS.
MUST SCORE BETTER THAN DARLS.
GIRLS ROCK.
GIRLS ARE MORE CLEVERER THAN GUYS.
WE AINT BIMBOS.
are you a HIMBO?
i realise my posts are getting longer & longer
horror.
it means. im getting naggy.
& draggy.
shorten your attention span.
& let concentration do their work
what am i bubbling?!

he gave me yet another eeyore (:
BABY EEYORE!
loveloves.
so adorable. it's as big as my kitty(:

these days had been a roller coaster ride.
first & formost, i'd like to congratulate our Millennian WARRIOR
for winning the Presidential Election.
im so proud of you baby (:
elation was beyond explanation.
i can only smile.
after all the tears ytd.
i knw no matter how much i apologise,
it wont matter to you as long as i change for the better.
just wanna say buttloads of thanks to my girlfriends for being there for me.
loveloves.
like what isk said, it was a test in this rs.
so... yah.
it was nothing.
i cried for nothing.
i was hurt for nothing.
i was hurt because i THOUGHT i was being hurt.
im sucha fool.
im the FIRST LADY now!
haha. big deal
being the President's girlfriend would mean:

• obeying all the skl rules.
• being a good girl.
• no cursing explicitly
• i hafta like everyone
• i cannot lay grudges on anyone, anywhere
• this includes teachers as well

oh wells.
im not that bad afterall.
so i'd prolly not die flat sticking to the rules.

bought him a huge Toblerone for him. belated Vday gift cum a token of congratulation for his precidency.
met my dear kindergarten friend aft skl.
after nearly 10years odd yah?
passed him the tix & im finally 10bux richer.
haha.
hadta rush back to skl for the public speaking mod.

was pretty fun lah.
& Rose! omg. u wont believe it man.
you knw the person who asked me to sign up for this mod, she actually acted as if she's my BEST FRIEND.
gross.

i have 2 CCAs now (:
my Wednesdays are taken.
mainly cos the public speaking mod.
but after that, i shall be diligent & go for my CCAs.
esp floorball.
commitment is my goal.
the new coach is goooood.
altho his english is alil bit broken, he's good.
Gary rocks.
MEOW.
better than Amir Hamzah.
that flirtatious man.

my great granddaddy's in hospital.
his dear heart is failing.
i was really devastated when i heard the news.
the only old man left that i love so much.
is clinging onto his life.
damn those doctors.
they said, "if he's younger, we wld perform an op to save his heart. but he's old now, so dont bother."

I BOTHER OKAY!
HE'S MY BELOVED GREAT GRANDDADDY.
my only one left.
the only thing the docs cld do is to save him.
is that too difficult or what?!

now i dont even feel like continuing with the dance during the PU2 Fun Day.
altho we're going Sentosa lah.
& BBQ at TohTuck.
after i heard what's happening to my great granddad,
all happiness is gnawed by the torment of losing my greatgrandaddy.
im still not over with my late granddad's death.
& im not ready for another of my loved to leave me.

my typical moday blues.
fuck man.
try starting your day by waking up realising you havent complete at least 50% of your tutorials
& havent finish studying for management test.
which had already been postponned.
& try carrying a thousand tonne gym bag to skl.
just because the skl end like 5.15 doesnt necessarily mean you hafta bring your whole cupboard.
but i did.
i felt so paranoid this morn.
i think my bag weighed 2349172319 kilos.
fricking heavy.
but i made chicken sandwiches today.
im (: cos it's super yummy.
hey you.
im sorry i walked away on you junnow in front of everyone.
i let you answer all their qns abt it.
sorry i made quite a scene in the lib.
i was pissed & annoyed.
& sorry i sulked at you too.
my bad.
i should be more sensitive to other people yah?
im just selfish lah.
i know that.
but i like being selfish cos it makes me secure about myself.
that way i wont lose out to myself.
call me a loser or what not.
im just selfish.
& sensitive. only to myself.
& certain people.
its not true that im not being sensitive at all to others.
i do selective sensitivity.
whatever that means.
HAIYAH.
no use talking about it lah.
i only get mad for a short period.
i wont stay mad at you forever.
i rarely stay mad for long anyways.
exhaust me of my energy.
i tend to push it back & rather forget about it.
back to my drony monday blues.
my maths is so behind time.
& i just found out during PE that nearly the whole staff room knew that i was hospitalized.
Mr Azlan was being super nice to me junnow.
bt i was kinda disappointed lah.
cos my stamina is like going down.
after my 2wks MC.
sigh.
i still havent puase nazar for my 2days.
& pay back my puase.
bt ive got fb tmr.
wed got plans.
thurs. hmm.. mebbeh fasting on thurs.
fri got fb.
sat. going swimming maybe.
sun got madrasah. maybe fasting on sun too.
alah. but im still on medication.
the hospital gave me like whole year supply of FEpills.
gross.
& OH
ive got a very belated valentine's gift from
my beloved mike.
he sent premium white chocs & this limited edition dark chocolate.
OMG. so sweet (:
but i dont knw how limited is the edition of the dark choc.
haha.
retard.
i dont know why i bother to type so much for this entry.
HIDAYAH DARLING, dont you fret about going for counselling. it's for your own good too.
not to worry dear, ive been through it too.
its not bad at all.
no bad experiences.
cos aft the counselling session, my parents hadta pay a bomb to the firm.
& they talked to my parents about understanding me more & not neglecting me on my own to force me to mature.
all i did was talk to the counsellor.
tell her stuff abt me & my probs.
it felt so much better aft she explained the differing perceptions of it.
dont worry oke?
love ya darling.
& thanks Agnes for being there for me junnow.
really appreciate your concern.
love ya babe.

ah wells.
its finally sunday.
yesterday was fun.
after THREE whole hours of doing my maths with Mr Ng, me & isk went Sentosa.
whee.
the weather was eventually great for tanning please.
went palawan & tanjong with him.
but i comlained too much abt the weather that it began pouring.
HEAVILY.
we sought shelter at this place which is still under construction & it was freezing cold please.
but cuddling makes you warm yah?
hee.
alas we took a run for it lah.
cos i needed to pee badly.
so we ran & ran in the fricking heavy rain.
& i got checked upon by this bung.
scary leh.
was drenched totally.
went HBmall to change & dry up all.
so cold...
then we went shopping.
hee
bought my lil sis' birthday gift.
super nice.
i was so happy after getting that gift.
but was kinda disappointed that i din get to tan so much.


planning to go sentosa again on wed.
& swimming with the girls.














10.32am. one year ago.
happy anniversary sweetheart.
we've survived a whole year now. well, at least its not that bad right?
although we had some major affrays & bickerings,
you never fail to cheer me up
even when we're on cold war
you've been there for me. always.
& i thank God for letting you cross my pathway
for letting me see through adversity
& to let me share my life with someone special.
these past few months had been difficult for us
especially with you running for the presidential election
i couldnt really spend ample time with you
& ytd was the first time aft many many weeks that i get to hug & kiss you.
finally you're away from the prying eyes of that MAN & the other teachers.
ive shared many part of my life with you.
although its only been one year,
but seems that my happiness is yours
& my tears are your sorrows.
you're just too dear for me.
i dont care what others see of you.
but you're always that jewel in my heart.
over this past year, you thought me endless of things.
esp history.
although i din listen to most of it, i really enjoy listening to the dronning of your voice.
its soothing to my ears.
i dont know how to thank you.
i owe you the world.
after all the sacrifices you went through for me.
ILU.
my Mr Incredible.

the muffin hid made with JULIE onnit!

rows of pizzas. EIGHT of them!

didnt go for floorball today.
but i passed my eternity-long MC to Bobby.
we had our 2nd Learning style workshop junnow.
i got back my results
im 90% tactile.
& 87% visual.
& we had our INCENTIVE.
yes. pizzas.
8 of them please.
i was so bloated.
ah. i need to do my maths.
remedials please.

eeyore please!

i am (:
yes i am.
cos Ben & Jerry's makes me high.
& my darling makes me (: too.
he's sucha darling.
asdigwea
asklnjskfa
kldjflaa
msakfnofla
kdghoiehfna
nhjajkghrg
wgnfeahr!!



RAWRH~

did for him ytd. VOTE WISELY!

oh valentino, valentino.
heh.
anyways, cupids were running ard delivering roses (:
rochers for the girls!
cupcakes for the class
sunflowers for MEEEEE!
hah.
this is my first day in school after 2 weeks of MC.
oh wells, turn out greater than ive expected it (:
isk fetched me to skl today & surprised me with this
SUPER HUGE EEYORE!
i love!
but i was expecting small baby eeyore..
hee, i still love it darls.
altho i have trouble lugging it ard, not mentioning ACCIDENTALLY dragging it on the ground & banging into people who wont budge even if i scream excuse me into their clogged up ears.
all in all, its still
SWEEEET
then the early dedication was from isk also
which i obviously din get to listen properly cos the sound system sucks
& the emcee was suckier.
the song dedis, well, dont lemmi start.
anways, i missed cher's presidential speech!
awwh ):
& there was tessa the asset & siraj the future PAP candidate
which was oke.
Amy made cupcakes for us all!
with our names frosted on it. CHOCOLATE! its nice.
& Sin Yee made CHOCOLATE CRISP for us all too!
oh yummy.
& i got a SUNFLOWER from Sitong
another SUNFLOWER from isk
a BLUE ROSE from Rose herself.. haha
M&Ms from Rose too (:
& endless lines of hugs, esp from Syaz, Fad & Mrs Heng!
& an Hong Bao from Mrs Heng.
OMG.
talking abt hugs,
i forgot to hug isk.
:(
booos to julie.
-------
honestly i still think my PAE batch's Valentine Booth rocks more lah.
SERIOUSLY. O5B6 under Mr Az.
like our roses are much more nicer & we gave enough water & coolness to let it bloom just nice before we sell it.
& individual roses have rice paper wrappings.
with ribbons please.
& we sell sunflowers too.
BIG HUGE BRIGHTER ONES.
i feel so disheartened man.
i mean, when i look at the sunflowers this year.
like not enough bloomage.
nvm.
shant preach.
munchkins.
heee.
i tried gossiping in mly just now to Fad. & it took me SO LONG TO FINISH MY STORY.
like so tiring lah.
but i used a BIG MALAY WORD: memundurkan diri
-beams-
hahaha. okelah.
i shall face the fact that my malay sucks.
but i proud to be a malay.
& kudos to Agnes darling for ur date!
hahaha..
hope you guys can talk it out k?
love you babe.
in fact, i love ALL of my girlfriends.
Rachel, Raudah, Amy, Ros, Fad & Me.
we were having a piano fiesta during free period junnow.
so fun.
thought Amy the new song.
& i wanna learn from Rachel the gundu. i mean, GURU.
haha.



ISKANDAR I DEMAND YOU TO BRING MY HOODIE TOMORROW.
oh yah.
helped isk with his speech for tmr.
his announciation & pronounciation & his intonnation is waaaay off.
listen to the drama mama k.
hope you learnt sth & picked up some key points from the pro.
HEH.
good luck sweets!
VOTE WISELY
VOTE FOR ISKANDAR AS PRESIDENT.
100% ceritified halal by Haji Soon.



thanks for the loves, love.

after being Chapter2-ed

before being Chapter2-ed

AHHHHHHHHHHHH
I FINALLY CUT MY HAIR!!
omg.
finally a LOAD off my head.
went to Chapter2 & had my haircut.
i told the guy to cut as much as possible without making me look fat.
he was like, "ure fat? then what about me?"
& he sulked.
hahaha.. he's cute & chubby!
hehheee..
he only chopped abt 4 inches of my hair.
so.. im left with shoulder length.
seems that he did chop off alot.
he said ive got MANY MANY hair.
& he was telling me of his ambition.
he's an avid fan of ANTM too!
omg omg.
he said he'll one day work for one of the winners of ANTM.
ahhaa.. then i was passed on.
like a conveyor belt.
the next lady washed & blowed my hair
& straightened my hair for me & all
& she smeared this hair cream which smelt like.... like... SO NICE LAH.
spent ard $45. cos im still a student (:
adult is like $70+
worth it for the all the massage & wash & blow & straightening.
worth it.
yey.
im a happy girl.
(:
went shopping at Bugis.
windowshopping.
i was browsing thru perlini's & saw this super sweet pendant!
i want!
but i spent too much for a day already.
decided to bypass the beach today.
will go sentosa with darls some day.
i bought a tub of ice cream too.
& i just finished it.
slurps
so much for caring & sharing eh..
& i forgot all abt the spa voucher.
bummer.
but i had fun alone.
gonna get ready for skl tmr.
im finally going to skl.
after 2weeks.
oh dear.
need to catch up real quick.
im so left behind lah.



pix are up in snapblog!

uploading photos is much faster than deleting photos.
what's up with friendster man.
aiyo..
gonna cut my hair later. & try to redeem that spa voucher..
whee.. ive got a $100 voucher courtesy of.. MR Liang Chee Beng.
haha.
nolah.
77th Street posted it to me as a Vday gift.
surprise surprise!
ladeedaa...
let's see.. i cleaned my room today. my bed basically, rearraged all my teddies & soft toys.
brought some outta the display & put some up for display..
gonna get a breather later.
maybe going to the beach or sth.
(:
alone. yes, i just need to rattle my head..
gonna cut my hair, then maybe shop for Vday & gonna hit the beach.
gonna get something for my babes.
thinking...
hmmm..
nothing for him.
i wont get anything for him.
bleh..
im still sore.

many dont realise what's before them.
and when they do, it's always too late.
why be a victim of this common disease.
cause when the antidote lies all in the talking.
you win some. you lose some.
but try u did not, then why feel troublesome?
ripped from agnes darling.
love you babe.

SIGH.
superficial feelings gnawing on my bones.
substaintial benefits among us.
fuck i dont know what;s going on.
farewell spaceman.
here i bid farewell.
it's like a nightmare that i cant wake up from.
a nightmare of a nightmare.
oh fuck.




















fuck it please.

the result for the o's are out today.
wonder how they're doing.
jojo cld qualify for SR, steph cld qualify for RJ sia. that boy. damn clever.
& one of my jrs cld qualify for VJ. see. i have such clever friends.
i wonder what happened to me.
haiyo.
i lent jojo my amaths & physics exam papers & she was like complaining to me it was damn chim.
got meh?
& my aunt said last year's O's were much simple than the Dragon batch.
why must dragon babies be the toughest sia.
many people = tough decisions = dilemmas = alot of challenges = unfairness.
i hate my batch.
i mean, we're always the guinea pigs & always the last one to suffer.
but at some point we're the last to have all the good things & fun stuffs.
that's a plus point.
but MOE has been tough on us.
just imagine la.. we hafta compete with all the dragon babies plus other babies taking exams that year.
die man.
Cambridge hadta moderate & remoderate to bring up the passing mark.
annoying people.
so tough to pass.
so people taking results this year, you guys better pass well or else..
or else i dont know.
haha.
just thank God y'all are not Dragon babies.
so not cool.
but my A's will be alot simpler. cos competing with non-aggressively clever babies.
aka average.
so... it's a double plus point!
HOORAH.
anws, all the best in choosing your skl y'all (:

ooooh i cant stop reading TDC.
it's damn engaging.

i miss my darling angels ):

it rained.
& im back (:
thank God.
staying in the hospital since tuesday was a nightmare. it gets really boring.
scan reports are out.
im fine (:
but there's a long series of checkups to be done.
my blood count rised from 7.5 to 8.2 after a full packet of bloood.
still low.
& thanks everyone who visited me during my stay. felt so loved.
-huggs-
& thanks for all the get-well gifts.
i love yous.

im having flu now.
i aint gonna complain anymore after i was poked FIFTEEN times.
thanks fine veins.
i was suffering when 3 doctors attented to me, all armed with needles, trying to find a vein big enough to sustain the blood given later.
so thruout all 3 days i was a goofy.
i eat, comb, flip, do everything with my left hand.
then when the nurse asked me to sign, i was signing with my left hand too.
& my right hand was swollen cos of the blood thingy.
really fat like sausages lah.
should have taken a picture of that fat stuffs.
omg i miss school.
i missed so much things
need to really revise & catch up with all the lectures & tutorials.
pictures are in my snapblog. more to come.
haha.


i miss the reclining bed.
im de-hospitalized, discharged.
HOORAH.

i feel like cutting my hair. short.
the weather's so friggin hot & humid
i cut my bangs again X)
i wanted a cleopatra bangs. but decided for the better aye.
& guess who came to visit me this morning?
MY CURLS!
i woke up with my old worn out curls.
coincidentally.
cos i wanted to give up using wella straight.
just get back my old curls back (:
& to think that i planned to curl my hair today.
so cool.
i just hafta think curls.
& viola!
the next morning, i'll have my curls back.
alah.. i just feel like crap now lah.
hafta pass mr raj the $50 tmr & im not happy with it lah.
cos its my money.
& i owe darls $10.
plus another $40 for the coming tix.
damn.
i'll eat bread everyday then.
that settles everything.
gonna visit grandmama tmr (: miss her buttloads.
she just came back from Haj safely. Alhamdulillah.
im so lazy to blog alr.
blog so long also for what.
i love keeping things curt cos i love re-reading my entries umpteenth times.
geek.
i dont like long winding detailed entries.
bore me to
d e a t h.

& oh, yey!
TONIGHT TONIGHT!!!
eh people, buy MI carnival tix frm me.
pretty please?
if not i'll be broke digging 9o bux from my piggybank.
oke.. im too lazy to blog abt ytd. shant elaborate.
RAWRHH.

feeling much better. thanks for the well wishes. & thanks kelly for tieing the balloons to the fence. cute. i love you sweetheart.
& ive been sleeping almost every hour.
but im still feeling tardy.
chingay laters.
tonnes of coffee.
missing loves alr.
agnes, get well babe. love you (:
huhhhh he's in town already!

anticipating anticipating.
went out for late lunch cum dinner with isk junnow. decided to go for sth soupy. thought it'll help. but i barfed it out. yucks.
so i left with nothing.
wont be coming to skl tmr lah.
im so sick of this.
shall be a good girl & visit the doc.
& no mike, im not gonna die. besides, u owe me hong baos. ure a married man now. dont try & run away from me.

bought tomatoes. x) God knows why. sudden urge.

to waste money.

ogled at Ben & Jerry's. for a long time.
Chubby Hubby!!!
we will grow fat together.
& soon...
they hafta invent another slick flavour, Julie Baloney. made from all her fav toppings & ins.
heee.

• vanilla. A MUST!
• butterscotch. buckets of it.
• almonds.
• fossil chocs.
• frozen whipped cream.
• marshmallow hearts.
• jelly beans.
• rainbow monkeys!

HOORAH. yummy mummy. i'll get double pints for myself & gorge myself to death. HEH.
ANTM coming up.

starting of the day was horrible.
agnes is MIA.
Evelyn came back.
i puked.
PE was fun lah. but i wasnt exactly having the mood for it.
duck walk. spaceman walk. etcetera etcetera etcetera.
helping the SCs burn the PAE orientation cd. boring job.