Sentosa outing with W'fac to celebrate Lulu's & Baby Jas's belated birthday. happens that only 6 ppl turned up. isk came over to MY place. too bad its gonna be my house soon. bleh. anyways, i made OREO CHEESECAKE for baby's & lulu's birthday. kudos to me, it was a success (:
the day went pretty well, altho baby seemed abit bored & sulky. sorry baby.. thought it'd be fun. but oh wells.. i din stay long tho.. hadta be back for dinner..
i cooked dinner ytd. i made prawn noodle. after dinner i went straight to bed. was so shagged! i only woke up officially at 1.30pm today. that's like after sleeping for 17hours. HAHA! beat that! im the SLUMBER QUEEN! nobody can beat my record. except for those pigs out there lah. i remebered that time, jet lagged like hell. slept more than 20hours. i dont thnk i can do that again. prolly the next time i'll beat my own record is whn i die. i'll sleep forever!
oh btw photos will be up shortly. currently waitin for darl's sms.. he's somewhere in bukit timah for the SC bonding trip with benny lim. urgh. oh yah, he got thru the interview ytd with frosted brown hair. lols.. benny lim commented on his hair tho, & isk claimed to me that his new-dyed hair attracted alot of girls' attention, including Henna, my darling kitty. -grunts-
ive got my nice tanlines already. im not gonna tan anymore or else noone cld recognise me whn i return to skl.
oh moma saw my hair ytd. at last she realised that i dyed my hair. shows that its not obvious lor.
moma: u dyed ur hair?
me: er yahh
moma: what a colour.. choose sth else nxt time
me: -grins from ear to ear-
i was expecting more like "that's it girl, you;re grounded for the whole of december!!" but hey, mom's not bad afterall..

WEEHUUUU!!
2nd double date in the month well, Haz asked me & isk out for dinner so yeah. on him & my sis.. *ka-ching!* so went town to meet him. went to this Turkish restaurant in town.. i was bloated la.. so full.. thn i dump my remainin chicken on isk's plate & my sis's.. hahaa. oh, they actually have this dish called ISKENDER. so isk thought the ppl behind the counter is calling him. lols. thn after that, went to shop for watches & shades. my sis wanted to get this Casio watch. damn chio cans.. wahhhh..but decided not to cos it's far too big for her skinny hand. it suits better for me! so yeah.. afterwhich they bought shades. i tried on almost all the shades they had on display. thn we walked to Heeren while i dragged isk to meet my kindergarten friend. i totally forgot how he look or sound like now so yeah, i was kinda clueless. all i knw is that he works at Paragon's Marketplace selling fish! hahaa.. so went Paragon & saw this guy at the fish stand. i was kinda reluctant to approach cos i cldnt see the name on his tag. i THOUGHT it was him, so i asked darls to check his tag for me. but darls said he saw me & took a double glance. -guffaws- but yeah, at last i crossed my fingers & waved at Gaddafy & he waved back. so phew, i got the right person. so nice to see a fren i last saw more thn 10 years ago. bought some stuff frm there & accompanied darls for his prayers.
& today is the first day in my entire life that i met my friends from kindergarten, primary & secondary & also tertiary!! i met May Ying at FarEast, met Gaddafy at Paragon, & Tiff & friends at Heeren. & isk is my tertiary boyFRIEND.
it was a short gasp-wave-frantically-&-smile-widely whn i met May Ying. hahaa.. then went Spinnelli at Heerens to just hang out with them la.. & i totally din realise that Tiff's table was diagonally across me! -gasp- waved at them tho. kinda miss spending time with them but we drifted so yeah. wounds left unmended. words left unsaid.
i drank my sis's chocolate ice drink & its sinful!! omg. i think im growing fatter but im actually losing weight. i lost 2kilos of body mass. oh bad.. very bad... im losing weight far too much in a short time span.
so anyways, we left Spinnelli & walked to PS. walked awhile & all thn left for home.. cos moma's cooking dinner..
& guess what we had for dinner? STEAK!!! -runs amock- fatty fatty steak... oooh yummy yummy.. i love my steak medium rare. oh God.. i ate so much, with the mushroom sauce & buttered potatoes. -drools-
i did moma a favour by doing the dishes aft that & thn went on making baby's cake & it seems that im having a holiday from the chores today. cos i din do anything at all. i woke up at 11 plus & bathed & all & i even had time to curl my hair.. which was utter nonsense. im just spoiling my natural curls. but i kinda like the "merepek" [nonsense in english] hairstyle. lols.

the steak! yummy! medium rare steak. ohhhhh my...

i was so bored this mornin that i took the crimpler & crimpled my hair.. was just playing with all the gadgets la.. waves and straightener.. & i enhanced my curls.. lalalaaaa.. i love the colour of my hair.. violet brown.. shall buy that dye agn & mebbe touch up abit durg dec (:

we checked the weather forecast for thurs from all the various webbies we can find. & they predicted scattered thunderstorms on thursday. but thank God, it was very sunny & a very splendid weather to tan. & like many others who wanted to go Sentosa, wished they hadnt cancelled their plans cos they THOUGHT its gonna rain. they BELIEVED in the weather forecast. we, on the other hand, followed our plans & followed our instincts & prayed ultra hard for the bestest weather. & God gave us. Alhamdulillah.. (:
im really really contented now. gonna pack my stuff & shove my lazy bum off this chair & go study somewhere. i love ytd. do you?

__________________________________

well, today was undoubtedly FUN. got my tanlines (: & for the first time, i saw darls half naked. as in, he walked on the beach half nakie.. so cute. we tanned. he tanned. i tanned. we had a romantic getaway across the island. whee... yes, sentosa.. his first time gg there without his family which made me more responsible over him. i really enjoyed myself. AND THE GOOD THING IS,

IT DID NOT RAIN!!! NOT A SINGLE DROP OF WATER!!

i was kinda scared that it'll rain today. cos its been raining these few days.. thunderstorm & all.. but hey! i prayed hard & my prayes were answered!! Alhamdulillah...God granted sunshine on us (: we went to the islet & spent sometime there lah whn SOMEONE had flashbacks. had a great time together aye? funnn.. darls was ticklin my funny bones by giving me racist jokes lah..
Q. what dya call a singh that is slim, rigged, chewy & minty?
A. SINGH-gum [old mly ppl pronounce chewing gum like this]
sucha retard right?! wah lao.. there was more to that. but i was so tickled to actually rmr each & every one of the jokes. hee..
he piggy backed me most of the time cos i was lazy to walk. lols. nola.. he owed me piggybacks. & somebody so sexy today arh.. hee..

its too overwhelming to type every single thing we did but it was damn fun..go buy 4D la.. 1124 oke? sure strike one... hee.. if not, its not my damn problem.

im not pissed actually. i just sounded pissed. im jus confused & perplexed.

goodbye brownish black, hello violet!!
im frickin happy la (*: seee that sparkle beside my eyes? ooooooh glistening. oke that was crap! im just happy..tralalaaas..
met Hid today for another dose of retail therapy. she got herself some lingerie & we saw that "gerder" that Rose was talkin abt.. damn huge lah. hahah thn off to find some colours! bought violet brown for mine & some kinda brown for isk (: his was specially for VIRGIN HAIR. its stated on the box, really.. so got excited & all.. paid for the stuff & went over to Hid's crib. she helped me with the dying.. she's the pro man.. dyed my hair & i realised i forgot to check for the halal stamp. so went fumbling ard the box only to see nothing of that sort! we were panicking la.. called the customer service & asked. i got hunged up twice. but Hid got thru & they called her back cos they needed to contact the people in Paris. i was awed... & it is HALAL! i felt as if a huge burden was lifted off my shoulders. i felt so guilty oke! they said that all their products are halal. even hid's pack was halal.. so yah.. misleading lehh... but the turn out is cool.. not that obvious tho.. so i dont hafta dye again whn skl reopens.. jus leave it that way (:
well, cancelled tmr's Sentosa getaway cos moma was kinda reluctant to lemmi go in this kinda weather. & Annas jus smsed me saying that there's floorball trg tmr. should i go? well, i told myself that its just abt time that i'll be more responsible & try to go for every training. so i'll go.. just hope that Fad's gg too...
cant wait to pass the dye to isk.. mebbe tmr we'll meet for lunch oke?

quotes:
#1_ & beware, should u betray my trust, even for once, i may turn like that.
#2_ im a senseless judgeless freak
#3_ & everyone knows, the truth hurts. yes indeed. it pierced me like shit. & endless stabs of it left me hanging with my last breath.
#4_ cos i know im not the least perfect
#5_ my poor little heart failed. im just so hurt.
#6_ its heartbreaking. totally destructive to my puny little heart. all this little scars will never mend.

got quotes. feel like quoting. just some old quotes form some old blogs & someone. i was laughing my hearts out at these particular quotes cos i was exaggerating most of my entries. like so poetic & so english literature-ish & it showed how pathetic & immature i was.
-guffaws-

9.45pm

something funny happened when i was doing the dishes junnow.. i was really in the mood for bubbles & all so i was singing to BonJovi's Its My Life & feeling so high... i was rinsing off the scums & whn i was shifting the tap to the other sink, i din realise that i did it too roughly & it came off! the whole tap came off & ITS RAINING IN THE HOUSE! i screamed & moma came to my rescue! tadaaa.. now the handy woman fixed the tap & i finish off the dishes before anything else happens. i had a good laugh at myself..

gonna dye my hair tmr.. & going for another dose of retail therapy with hidayah. gonna meet her after her netball trg (: whees cant wait!

3.43pm
today is just one of those wet & lonely days. really...its just one of MY days. the day started off dull & dark & wet.. been rainin non stop..i woke up from my sleep by the beeping of the hp & i read the sweet msgs from him. got up & took a super hot bath.. i had sucha great hair day today so i let my hair down, put on my hoodie & jeans & took off from home. the journey to the lib was boring. the rain pitter-pattered on the window of the bus & i just blasted purfect10 & read my book. all the way til the lib. i managed to find a comfy spot at the corner of the lib & sat down for 2hrs revising mgt. im glad i got sth in my head.. thn i started to get super lonely & bored. so i read agn & read & read.. only to realise i killed 1hr & my tummy started to rumble..
packed my belongings & headed to Fork&Spoon to eat.
i couldnt decide on what to eat so i just got myself hokkien mee agn.. & these 2 uncles were literally shouting at their hp.. they really reminded me of a grp of unruly primates. sheeesh ahpeks! & they were busy handing bundles of $50 notes that they din realise i was holding a measly 4bux to pay for my food. so i stood there like a doofus waiting for one of the ahpeks to take my money. at a point of time, i wanted to just walk off & enjoy a free meal but the angel on my right shoulder told me no.. so finally after standing there for 5mins, i waved the money infront of the uncle & smiled sheepishly. gosh......
i ate slowly while reading again.. oh.. while walking to F&S, i saw this Banglas emptying the coins from one of the old pay phones. & i actually stopped & stared at him while he was doing that. i wanted to dial 999 but i guess i was a coward. one of the banglas were pretending to talk on the phone while the other opened the coins compartment & emptying em into a plastic bag. & one of the man noticed me standing there & he shouted sth in tamil & i walked away quickly. i was scared that they're gonna tail me & rape me or sth.
the walk to the bustop was super long. cos i chose the wrong path that led me to the other bustop. so yah.. walked in the rain slowly.. under the umbrella.. dont worry darl, i din play in the rain..
i felt so fucking lonely today.. i dont give a damn if i wet my jeans whn i trampled into the puddle or what.. i dont care if its a dirty puddle or clean.. i just walked on. i didnt realise how much my life had changed. i no longer have that confident vibe in me to walk outside alone without feeling guilty or scared that i'll disappoint him. it dawned to me on how dependent i am on him. i no longer have a vertebrae. there wasznt anyone holding my waist to steer me away from those dirty puddles. there wasznt anyone who'll protect me from those man out there that constantly pose a threat to me. i became a weakling rather than that independent chic i was dreaming to be once my prince swept me off my feet.
honestly, i had alot of brain wrenching reflections today. i never regretted this rs to start.. i never want it to end now.. but life has to go on. no matter how much it changed. for the better, worse or not.. it still must go on. life cannot be on a standstill. i need to be emotionally stronger than this. i see that im actually emotionally stronger than last time that i can handle verbal diarrhoea now.. i learn to listen & understand the other party rather than letting my rage get over me & blow up. i had my temper all subdued now. if anyone were to have verbal diarrhoea on me last time, i would have #%!#~ him/her & condemn him/her for life. but im more willing to forgive & forget now. but the only emotion that caught me off guard that it had unquestionably hiked is jealousy. that's the only emotion that im holding back. dont want jealousy to get onto me too much.

10.25pm
what are the odds of having me blogging twice in a day. not odd at all...
& i think its just bad karma.. -heaves a heavy sigh- ive been blindly dissing people in & out these few days & today, i got it all back. not exactly in a form of dissings from others. but from isk. he's just full of vengeance. the first guy ive ever met that has the word REVENGE written all over his face. for once i thought im doomed for life if i continue this relationship, having him peeping over my shoulder & to know each & every step im making, who im meeting what im doing & so on. & to think that he'll have higher powers over on who'll be my friends & who i CAN & CANT chat with.. & him telling me not to dye my hair if my main intention was to get attention from other guys & continue telling me grandfather stories abt pre-war times.
it totally drained me.. he really tested my patience to my utmost limit that i was on the verge to cry...
but he just have to spoil my night by saying its just a way of getting back on me whn i tested him earlier on about his confidence..he nearly passed but he tilted the scale & all means tumbled on him. sigh..
I DONT LIKE YOU! I KNOW YOU DONT CARE IF I LIKED YOU OR NOT!!! COS YOU DONT EVEN LIKE ME A SINGLE BIT RIGHT?!!?!!!
i dont care whether you liked me or not young man.. cos you;ve gone too far. too far in love to back out now..hah! he's just evil & i dont like it...
just a stupid test on each other..we're cool... we're always cool...
& im not doomed after all. im actually blessed with a good man that will always care for me & make me secure & of all the things, protect me. i thanked God a million times by now for making him cross my path & opening my eyes to his potential in life & also OUR potential..i'll just hafta continue praying that we'll make it thru death (:
the wonders of love...

3.13pm
im addicted.
im addicted to crack.
im addicted to isk.
im addicted to ear candies.
im addicted to tofee.
im just an addict.
definitely addicted to something but not crack.. scrap that.
geee i dont know what got to me. met him in wee hours of the day to pass him the paper he asked me to print out for him. sigh.. he went off for this seamanship course for 3 daylights. yes, daylights cos he'll be back prolly everynight. wont be any overnight stays.. sent him off to Tanah Merah stn & i took a train back. detoured to Mac for bfast. alone.. pathetic.. i had hotcakes. yummy..& my book accompanied me thru the bfast. i ate super slow la.. went home & slept.
i woke up & im still clad in jeans & shirt.. so i took a shower & helped moma in the kitchen.. so tired... i dont wanna be a housewife next time. you hafta do everything! & my lil sis is totally pisssing me off...
talking abt Tanah Merah stn, my lil sis was busy choosing her secondary schools. helped her abit here & there lah & i was like telling her to put Deyi as one of the choices but no... she want some top notch Secondary schools. im not looking down on her or what.. its just that i dont want her to be as disappointed like me. ive got 245 for my prelims & all my top 3 choices went to single sex schs.. & i wanted to go Cedar badly. & whn i got my results i was utterly disappointed to get a 221 lah. frickin low oke. but Deyi saved me. got me into 2nd best express cls & i was supposed to be in the 1st cls but there was quite a number of ppl who got 221 so follow alphabetical order. so i was THROWN into the 2nd best cls. which is alright.. now back to the MRT station incident..
sis: where's bukit merah stn?
me: prolly on the red line...
sis: *silence & flippin of pages were heard*
a moment later...
sis: eh thn where's Red Hill stn?
how is she gonna get to Cedar like this?! RED HILL = BUKIT MERAH. duhhh.
well, at least she asked for recommendations on which school she ought NOT to choose. and apparently, the only school that popped in my mind was Serangoon Sec. -guffaws- to think that she'll go to my bf's ex school & he was an ex head prefect there was definitely not a bright idea. i couldnt see the logical reason behind my biased judgement but it just sound so wrong. & deep inside, i felt a lil embarrassed.. like she'll know stuff abt him or sth.. i dont know.. doesznt make any shit.. i mean sense.. like, for instance. if suay suay she got into serangoon sec.. what if she goes ard telling her friends, hey! the ex head prefect in 2004 of this school is my sister's bf! & what if it leaked to the nosey creatures over there. heard that the teachers are damn nosey & kaypo.. they have this weird liking to slither into people's personal lives & probe around like they owned the world.. as if there isznt enough assignments to keep them pre-occupied. they ought to get a new job.. more like a counsellor who asks a gazzilion questions rather than just asking a simple qn like, now, why dont you tell me everything. what's so difficult about that? they HAD to get all the nitty gritty stuffs & if would given a chance, they would pick that booger in your nose that had been peeking out to say hello to the new interrogator[spelling].
damn..
i miss him already -heaves a heavy sigh-
oh & did i mention, i hate rippers. loathe them to the bowels of hell. burn baby burn in hell........
grunts. enough of being sadistic..geee talking abt sadism.. i miss HAPPY TREE FRIENDS.. shall go catch some epis now.. wheee.... -chants the theme song-

no offence man. if you feel offended, then its high time you do something about that spelling problem of yours. im in no position to say f* up stuffs about you people but i wasznt pin pointing to anyone about this. so go brush up on your english cos its annoying me. do it for the sake of others & also yourself. thank you.

11.58am

im cool im cool. -breathes- i was so pissed off ytd that i blew my frickin night off. what a bummer.
slept thru my pissy-ness all night. & waking up only to feel unruffled. ahh heavenly..
oh wells, im determined to blog abt ytd AGAIN. in the lightest mood i can conjure. so here it goes.
19th november 2oo5.
i sneaked outta my house early morn to meet up with darls. oke, that was a lie. i didnt sneak out. i said goodbye to my daddy & kissed him before i left & yeah i left the laundry halfway done. nyahahahaa. well, met him at HG & ate at this thai restaurant which i forgot of the name. nvm. food was nice (: he bought me a rose. no offence but i like sunflowers. -hint hint- i just love collecting dried roses. or i'll just bathe in them. haha...but that isznt the point here. my cammie died on me. -frust- oke nvm tt. we went on to J8 to book the tix. since this is like the 1st weekend of the opening... yeah you can guess it. full house almost at an instant. but we managed to get 4seats. UPFRONT. like as in the front row. -horror- now my back ached after sitting in odd angles just tryna get a glimpse of harry's musty nostrils. blehh. but i was quite comfy cos i was lieing on darls. i took a peep on my sis & her bf & ooops. shant say. nyahaa. & they were late lah! i hate ppl who's not punctual. -grumbles- i was like on the merge of merajoking alr lah. i just slumped beside the chuppa chups machine & sulk. im sucha loser. booos. major bummer. & i got kinda stressed whn darls kept on rushing me to call my sis. i gave her a thousand & one miss calls lah. & when im stressed abt nitty gritty stuffs like this, i'll gorge. so i asked him to buy me a cheesy dog. & i stuff em in my trap to shut me from further complaining. gahh. before that, while waiting for 330 to come, we had dessert at swensons. super nice.
well, here's what ive got to say abt the movie. IT'S SPLENDID! I WANNA WATCH IT AGAIN! PLEASE!! someone, bring me for a movie again! i'll make sure i'll hug you to death. only for the fact that we got the most lousiest seats. i still enjoy it $%!#^#@!!! the only bummers are my bladder & these 2 girls beside darls. they're like, oh this is Cedric Diggory. that's Victor krum. & then this will happen. then that. & then ahh....blah blah blah! SHUT UP LAH!! I KNOW YOU MEMORISED THE WHOLE BOOK A MILLION TIMES. I DONT CARE! NO NEED TO TELL THE WHOLE THEATRE YOU KNOW YOUR BUTTS ABT THE MOVIE LAH. IF YOURE THE DIRECTOR'S DAUGHTER THEN I'LL SHUT UP. ^&$#*!! freaks man these ppl. grrrs.
& my bladder was killing me. on top of that, my right leg was sleeping [semut semut]. & i cried whn cedric died. oh god... he dont deserve to die. he's just too handsome! stupid voldermort. why dont you kill someone as ugly as you. you dont even have a nose bridge. ever considered plastic surgery? heee how evil.
my sis's bf bought my sis a ring at Perlini's Silver. "just as a gift". like he said. but its nice. cos i chose it for her. hahaa. & yeah.. i brought her outside & pointed pathetically to this nice tote & exclaimed that i want it. i did demand her to do anything or what cos my intention was to ask her how waszit. & thn she said, "i'll buy for you lah" wheeee -skips ard the room- so now ive forgiven her for making me wait for her. hahaa..
thn we went dinner together. both couples. had a mini chit chat session lah.. & hazril & isk looked like theyre brothers. hahaa. cute. saw yee wen & she was smiling cheekily lah.. hahaa..
how can i ever forget this day. what a way to celebrate our 9th monthsary.
ps. i love you

9.44pm
oke whatever. i blogged a loooooooooooooong entry & it went KAPOOF. bloody hell.
spoilt my mood oke?! fuck.
i'll just blog in point form then. that way it wont be a heartache whn they jolly well tell me there's an error in publishing this entry.

• nine mths.
• double date with sis & bf
• harry potter
• swensons.
• butterscotch & vanilla ice cream is heaven
• cedric diggory really shouldnt die.
• new bag
• shopping for sentosa

woke me up from my slumberland. -grumbles- oh wells, at least i had my hot hot hot steaming shower. phooh.. very refreshing. darl's is in SP now for his nephew's grad. i was suppose to go for my lil bro's grad party today but im still unwell. so yeah.. kinda bored. im back to my old account cos the new one got spammed. & miraculously, the old spammed accnt was all right! whees. all thanks to darls for teaching me the basic of fixing computers. nyee.. im a computer noob so that explains why i complain more then actually sitting down to think of how to fix the comp whn it crashed on me. haha!
oooh i found Henna running under my bed whn the thunder boomed. so cute. she ran to me whn i opened the door with all her limbs bent so she's like stooping so low. cute! she's now in my wardrobe hiding somewhere. aiyo.. i thought i was the only one who's afraid of thunder. my dear too! hahaa..
this is gonna be my 2nd time making hot mushroom soup & crunchy garlic bread. find it really suitable on cold & rainy days like this. & plus, it taste awefully superb. major tastebud spoiler. & darls actually told me that he misses my cooking. -beams- really? i still rmbred vividly how i torture him with my cooking. there's once whn i made noodles for him & it turned out super oily & salty. like as if i put seawater as the gravy. poor baby boy.. but im actually proud of my oyster & honey fried chicken wings. bet he loved that too. too bad i only know how to cook 2 types of fried rice & nothing more except some basic cooking like instant noodles, frying & poaching egg, frying of finger foods & some other basic baking & desserts. moma consider that as pathetic. i consider myself lucky. wooooh.. im feeling damn bored lah. im nearly finishing one of the books that i borrowed. so RA. well not so la. just merely talks about sex life & also about the biggest feelings that we ought not to say out. really really interesting book.
back to my point... since im using my older accnt where all my music are, i listened to each & every one of them. which is tonnes. took me the whole afternoon & its only a quater. mebbe cos i put some of the songs on repeat. lols. oooh yada yada. & i slept. & now im watching Jeff Corwin on Animal Planet. how lame. I WANT my MTV BACK!!! eee annoying!
that's it. im gonna seek pleasure -guffaws-
HARRY POTTER TOMORROW!!
SWENSONS!
DATE!
wait a minute. cancel that last bit. i had dates with him almost everyday & im not even sick & tired of it. somehow i yearmed for more (: not the despo kind. just the whatever kind. IM BORED FOR PETE'S SAKE! BORED BORED BORED. WHICH PART OF BOREDOM DONT YOU UNDERSTAND?!?!
fine. -storms out-
oh someone told me sth on MSN. 021205. he's coming back. so?! wth. do i look like i cared any lesser about such dates of such insignificant ppl going in & outta my life?! fuck off lah. i dont care no more. just leave me alone.
ps. i love my blog song. heeee.

7.46pm

well, goblet of fire is out today. will be watching it on sat cum celebrating our 9th monthsary. hee. oh wells that's not the purpose of me blogging just for the sake of randomness. all hecks. & damn im sick agn. i havent quite fully recovered from my previous ails & here i am, puking my meals 5times a day. life's a bitch. -grumbles- my tummy is literally empty & by now most prolly my digestive juices are digesting the walls of my stomach. ewk gross. awwh hopefully its just stomach flu.
& supposedly im engaged in alot of activities today.
-continue jalan rayer with them
-floorball trg
-study
but i was sick. so cancelled everything in the morning & ahlong called & begged me to come for trg. bleh. alas i went studying with isk instead. i was starving by the time i met him so we grabbed sth to eat at MP. i had my cravings REASONABLY satisfied. ate hokkien mee la.. nth much.. din wanna flood my tummy by eatin sth heavy. shared dessert with him.
we played at the playground for awhile & i dont know what's up wimme today. seems that my english deteriorated almost instantly, like all of a sudden i converse in malay?! wth! i mean, its no sin talking in mly but i sound so awkwardly funny! & there's one point of time whn he placed his freezing cold hands on my arm to move me away from an oncoming bike & i struggled away from his grasp & exclaimed "the cold is pain" like what the hell is that?! sheesh...
went ahead to the lib & revised abit but i was feeling alil groggy & all weird inside. so we went off. i slept in the bus all the way til s'goon. i only stirred once or twice whn the stupid bus driver did an emergency break. but he was cuddling me tight so i continued to my slumberland. ahh nice. my turn to slp on him cos he slept the whole way on my lap whn we're gg MP.

6.47pm

wet wet day. sloppy wet day. ehks..
went out to study today. isk fetched me & i saw kelvindar! -skip- we planned to go to McDs at YMCA. that super condusive McD. but the f* up govt went to sell them away to some kinda company & we're left with nowhere to study. what an ass. -grumbles- decided to take a bite at kfc for bfast. fish ole (: ALAS i found someone who understands my language of food. isk started talking abt big catch & im like, staring at him. OMG he understands me! after all this time, i have been telling ppl, this fish ole is just a come-back of their mighty old big catch & they'll go, huh? i dont know. -piang- yay yay.. now isk understands. how annoying that cld get. hees. & he look slacky today. kudos to me. hhahaha.. no la.. the credits goes to him. its his clothes. for once, he's not the guai-goody-two-shoes-apple-of-the-teacher's-eye guy. he's totally MINE. he's MY MAN who sweeps me off my feet. literally.
thn i suggested harbour front. since i studied there during my o's.. which was a totally great place to study. but i was single then & i was busy memorising the faces of various hot bods that past by rather thn being submerged in my notes. hahas. young minds. so the only thing that motivates me to study is being able to oogle at hot tanned bods with ample pecs & chest to boot. -drools-
neh. im way past that. i have my own to oogle. he's more better than those hot bods with no brains. nyahaa.. enough side tracking, as i was saying, we went harbour front only to find it full with pak endons. pew. & its lunchtime. so yah. that explains. so we tracked back & took 80 frm there & went all the way to Rivervale plaza if im not wrong. went kfc [again] to study. & this time, we really sat down & mugged. i din finish the frst topic tho. will continue once im done uploading the pixies. hee. we cam whored. yes. iskandar cam whored. its really interesting to see how fascinated he is whn he sees the camie.
it dawned to me that he's a very very nice guy.
oke im off to revise.

i went out with this drunken-looking guy. he's the best!

notes notes notes. show off lah hor. im just bored. bear with it.

so this is what i memorised. PROFIT. so far. that's like pathetic?! oh c'mon!

& we got bored. pout baby, pout. & yeah puff daddy, puff.

oke properly now darls.

i think im OBSESSED with the sky. i just love it so much. oke that was random. you really shouldnt know that.

10.41pm

look mommy, i can be Singapore's Next Top Model. how's my winning pose?

9.44pm

tired leh. just came home like 10mins ago. showered & changed & all that stuff. went jln rayer with em today! yey.. my first (: yes, im so kuno. hee.. & i love it. that jittery feeling everytime i meet their parents & salam them & try to communicate somehow. hahaa.. me & parents.. neh, we dont work hand in hand. anyways, had econs tutorial this morn. me & isk came in late. bleh. lessons today was pretty slack. hahh.. she went thru promos paper & all yada yada stuff & started talkin abt her hols in japan.. wanna go there one day. yes for ONE day. she made it sound so horrible eating raw food every single day & having down with terrible diarrhoea that lasted you till the end of your trip. horrible eh? aiyo *smacks forehead* anyways, econs lasted for ONE BLOODY hour ONLY. eeeeee.... annoying. so went back to that plce, slept & showered to get ready. met isk & went potong pasir to meet rose & the girls.
#1 rose's crib. really really homey with great food & entertainment! guitars, both electric & acoustic.. xbox, lotsa dvds.. & her moma made pasta for us & fried chicken wings. oooh God. thanks for the generous amt of chicken (: her pineapple [is that how u spell it?] tarts are puny! adorable. just pop it in your mouth & chew. nice. i love the checkered cream cake. i dont know the name so i'll just call it the checkered cream cake. yummy.we watched WHITE CHICKS. frickin skrewed la... very funny & shrewd. but only watched it like halfway? thn its mine.
#2 nil crib. mom was slacky. haha. simply refused to wear sth presentable. nvm. so the place was awkwardly quiet lah. after i served drinks & all. brought henna out & she flirted around. nth much happens here. i hate this place. lacking of sheer life. argh.
*blank*
#3 mdm secret throw's house. guffaws. cikgu rahsiah's hse was at cck lah. damn far. we got confused of the block no. lol. so funny lah. retards... atika's grp was there frst so we're like the 2nd batch lah. hung ard & we spent like 1 hr plus in her hse. played with her 2 sons, oh God.. i forgot their names. but adorable! ooh the 1yr plus baby is called Khairi & the elder bro is.... oke i forgot. ate & all. me & fad helped her with the dishes.. & fad found her other "someone" that looks like her! so sweet..
#4 Syaz's crib. FRICKING ENCHANTING LAH! i feel like going, WAAAAAH all the way. i love her house. woody antiques. her parents have a very good taste. & they're like very tertib. like all the nitty gritty stuffs. really. salutes. rose was makin a fuss abt the washroom so me & hid went to her toilet. very what right?! hahaa... orang tak tau malu per. hid even took pix of it lah. & i dont wanna go out. hahaa if im being punished in her hse [which is totally impossible] & being sent off to slp in the toilet, i wld happily pack my things & shift in immediately. with no regrets. its really very unique. one of a kind. a superb wonderland.i mean the whole house not only the toilet but her dad looks damn strict & firm. i was so scared to have any eye contact with him. except that i was wondering if anybody can make him smile. or laugh even. heeee.. shrugs.
#5 fad's crib. that orange woman with the orange drink. exactly positioned like syaz's but very spacious (: i din eat much nor drink there. sorry fad.. my tummy's abt to burst frm all that constant eating & drinking. BURRP. but fad's always evil. she let us eat stones on hari rayer. STONES LEH! stones. how cld she.. luckily these stones are made frm chocs. oh oke that was damn lame, julie. aharkhz..
after her crib, i rushed back home. took the cab from opp jassy's condo with isk. he sent me off (: swweeeeeeeet laaah..but the taxi driver is like what la... purposely turn a whole round only to find that we're still at the same place. grumbles. isk was doing all the talking & its like that man dont even know his directions lah! he was driving aimlessly. & i got motion sickness so if i were to puke in his taxi, i would not give a damn.

12.39am

im awake! awake!
*yawns*
so shagged but i pulled myself outta bed. had sth light for supper & a lil destressing.. cooked maggi. yucks. it taste gross! prawn?! its suppose to be nice. ew ew ewww.. nonsense. thank god i have my crunchie bar to look forward too. will study till 2 & im off to bed. ECONS tutorials tmr. blehh an hour ONLY?! and if its like 11-12 or sth i dont mind. but its 8-9 for goodness sake!
*grumble*
i hadta wake up early..sheesh...
oke im outtttts

4.48pm

its 4.48pm on a monday, 14th november 2oo5 currently. havent bathed. pewwww. hahaa. just got home from my fun time. hee. had mgt lect but i was wearing totally slack to skl today. like literally SLACK la.. was wearing my no.7 orange cls jersey, skl skirt & the camo FLIP FLOPS & the new sling & black thongs & halter bra & beaded accessories. LOL. (: wheee.. walked to skl with darls & he appeared in full uni lah. gosh. so asked him to change.. he changed & told him not to tuck in his jersey too IN. eh wth does that mean? ala... you got the drift rite? & so he looked slack like me too. heee i love! met the other hidayah & rose on the way up & went to LR5 for lect. & too bad i was caught by mdm siti for wearing my flip flops lah.. cos i was so itchy to literally jump into cls behind isk. hahaa.. but no punishments (: slack ahhhh.. some time thru the lect, i went up to get notes for hid & fad & she asked me why was i wearing flip flops & i claimed tt i was late so i rushed. hee. she was so cute la.. she was like, "eh eh.. cepuk baru tau eh. pijak kaki ehh.."
was kinda surprised that i was attentive during lect (: time to buck up grl. but for now.. slack ahhhh.. hahaas. lect ended like 11..fad & hid din come lah. hmff..& rose went shopping for lingeries in suntec. omg i want! hee.. & so, there goes our cruise.. funnn.. ate chicken chop (: mhhmm nyummy... was so bloated & darls still had space for dessert. wanted to walk to the beach but weather isznt nice to us. hmff. nvm.. so took back to amk & visited the lib to get a few books. found 2 nice books, the paper eater & the best a man can get. looks really interesting but never judge a book by its cover. might be boring to the max. so i'll just flip thru tonight.
bought milk & CRUNCHIE bar for tonight. thought of revising thru some of the pu1s workload abit tonight. so the crunchie wld do the job as an incentive to me. i'll ONLY eat it AFTER i finish 2hrs of revision. haha pathetic lah.. i should put oyster infront of me & dare myself to revise 5 hours straight without getting a whiff of that scrumptious chuck.
YESSSSSS!!!
good idea. darls & me agreed to go BEACHING at Sentosa in early dec. as a romantic getaway?
*guffaws*
nehh.. just as a lil outing OVERSEAS. so i'll use that as a motivation. study now, enjoy later! wheee.. then.. we'll go suntanning & bikini whoring.. & cam whoring tooo.. oooohhh i love tan-lines. tan lines tan lines tan lines [chants on & on] oh God. im gonna be scorched.
and after that, a week more of studies &..
RETAIL THERAPY!!!!!!!!
freakk!!! i got all my holidays worked out. *beams* no more regretting of not-enjoying-my hols anymore. no more procrastinating. frm next yr onwards, im gonna be a nice girl. no more nosing into other ppl's lives, well that MAY be an exception, & start planning things well off & do it. execute my plans. & not to be too fickle minded, woman. nyaha..
all starting from.... NOW!!!
till then, i'll slack abit more & start my revision after my cooling bathe in the tub. so if anyone of you see me online or if i IM anyone in MSN, please DO HESITATE TO SCOLD ME TAUNT ME, TELL ME OFF, SHOO ME & do whatever to piss me off & go offline. thank you. your actions are greatly appreciated.

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& oooh oooh oooh how can i forget! i met my long-time-no-see primary school bestie, FARHANAH! the netball pro. its like really really nice to stumble across her. i was like at the back of the bus at the top deck & saw some VJ ppl boarding the bus & our eyes met. i was like seeing a familiar figure & whee.. i smiled, she smiled, & we waved! we went off at the same stop & i tickled her.. she was like, "haaaa... no hanky panky-ing ahh." so nice to hear from her. we had a brief convo.. but brings alot of memories. sigh. how fast people grow older. mebbe the next time i see her will be at someone's wedding or sth.. or funeral?! *shudders* God knows.
hope to meet up with the rest lah..
hope.
hope.
the only thing i'll still cling on to come what may. reminds me of that song. yuch sopranos.
going visiting to the n'bours later after dinner. see.. its not that im procrastinating. WHEN I PLANNED EVERYTHING, SOMETHING WOULD GET IN MY WAY. so their bad. afterall, i can use that visiting hours & play their piano. heee.. so will start after i come home lah.

freak. i just watched this super scary movie, wrong turn. bloody scary lah. i was literally screaming my hearts out. i nearly went deaf & so does my lil bro & sis. sucha shame that i was like the oldest among them while watchin it. theyre like relying on me to be braver than them but too bad. im just as freaked out as they are. lols. but soon after the movie, i was laughing at myself for being sucha baby. my lil brother's cute.. he's like mute-screaming. my lil sister was like "can you stop screaming? you're making me deaf & im shocked cos of your screams, not cos of the show"
fine lah.. today is like the boringest day EVER. for the first time, my parents actually told me not to go madrasah. wheeeee... *skips around the house*so rotted at home while i wait for my roses to dry properly & put them back in the nice triangle jar (: in the midst of boredom... found my kindergarten friend in friendster. like woah.. been like 10 darn donkey years!
back to my boring life pampering my dear darling kitty like no other. & spamming the comp, smsing, hanging on the phone with darls. what other thing can i do?! oh yah...

dinner was fried pasta & fried chicken. wooooh superb. im pretty bored lah. save me!

scary leh. that's why i avoided her. she's more tolerable now. hahaa. cute too.. less of that snarling. she knows how to smile properly.

seeee.. so sweet..

& every baby that comes to our house goes after Henna. poor kitty. she's like baby sitting & entertainin thoses babies & toddlers. so cute. she goes ard the kids & scent them & then sits very near them & let them stroke her. one baby even pulled her tail but she just brush them with her paw, without taking out her claws. worse comes to worse, she'll just move away.

arh. so sick & tired.
zonked outttttt.

henna scratched me bad. ouch.

that gym bag (:

my dried rose collection! i love it so much (:

we tried to finish up this puzzle but gave up cos its almost impossible.

a petal. half-rotten. whee (:

MANGO fragrance. niiiice.

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ehhhkk randomness. just a lil sth to clear off my mind. isk came back junow!! whee (: elation was beyond explanation. met him at tpy & gave him the card. heee sweetness. went back to kovan to get our gym bag (: less than 15bux. superb. thn walked ard awhile only. was kinda tired. bumped into aidah! no, she shoved into us. lol. funneh.
mr ng ps us lah. hmmff.. like barely 15 ppl came for lessons. but hey no, there's no lessons! arhh.. then them girls went kovan to eat kfc. thn we window-shopped awhile. heee.

oooooh currently in SP. crashed thru like nobody's biz. i mean, i passed the security. easy peasy. i smiled at the man & walked on by. hahah.. felt bad tho. cos i cheated someone. hee. met aidah & we ate at their foodcourt. mmmhh.. she showed me ard & all. very interesting. i went for their lecture too. very interestin. interior designin lehh.. cool. but their lect rm is smaller thn our audi so im like "oh shit, i gotta hide". but hey, noone noticed except for this monkey of a guy who cldnt sit still. annoying. all in all, i sticked to aidah & her gfs.. fur & idah. coooool. super nice women. heee..
theyre dg their work now so i'll just chill awhile. i did maths during their lect & look up once in a while to play pretend. lols. gonnna read up my econs later while she does her work...
she lemmi listen to 'the internet is for porn'. nothing to do with sick actions or r-rated stuffs. its just a song. lol. very cute.
i feel like a poseur for today. a poly poseur. nyahaaa~




i miss you lah.

i had a nightmare.
i hate nightmares i hate nightmares i hate nightmares i hate nightmares i hate nightmares i hate nightmares i hate nightmares i hate nightmares i hate nightmares.
i couldnt sleep well either. i kept on tossing & turning in bed & whn finally i dozed off to lala land, i was greeted warmly with a stupid nightmare. ARGH. annoying. & i really couldnt get the drift of my nightmare.
whatever.
managed to talk to him last night (: elation was beyond explanation man.. pure bliss. missed him so much. & was kinda surprise that he was the only bartleyian in the bunk. the rest was frm tohtuck. & the rest of the bartleyians were in the other bunks. sigh..
oh wells... one more day to go..
ait gonna get ready to crash some butts! schools i mean.
aharkhz.

I CANT TAKE IT AHHH!!



sulks.

my tummy feels funny. arghh..
right. start from 6am.
aparently i woke up late & hadta rush & get ready to send him off to camp. i dont know why i was jealous cos he got chosen for that camp & not me. scrap that. im just jealous. sigh. but i was really really happy & proud that he got chosen automatically. shows that the teachers & his friends see that potential in him to shine & lead. i see that potential too.. always did.. hmm its like ive been lookin up to him ever since the frst day i met him. i know i shouldnt brag abt him but he's someone im very proud of. except for his fashion sense. lols. so skrewed cute.. but he's slowly upgrading oke! & i love it. but i still like the casual iskandar. hehhh..
passed him my 2 sublocks for body & face. hope he wont get burnt or toasted in the scorching november sun. on the way to meet him, stumbled upon two anonymous aunties. their conversation goes like:
aunty #1: eh today hor, got o-level paper rite? wah my neighbour's daughter study like siao leh. so poor thing.
aunty #2: aiya.. dont worry lah, student nowadays only want to go poly. see lah *points at me* go school take exam no need revise last min wan...
aunty #1: ya hor.. *speaks sth in cheena*
i was looking down at myself, i mean literally. & laughed. excuse me kepo aunties, for your information, ive already taken my O lvls & on my way to take my A lvls. do i look so slack of a student?bahhh hahahhh.. i was wearing my hoodie & school skirt & nothin in my sling expt for sunblocks & i din wear socks! ewww.. was rushing..so yah. dont like kepo aunties lah. they like to nose into people's lives. frick off man.. arhhh..
oh wells, sent isk off to sch & i went home. he din even stop & say a proper goodbye and reassure me. i was about to cry lah. hmff. but he did look back after he walk off. that made me smile abit. thought about these moments without him to tease or bully me. wait.. i was thinking more abt the moments without anyone for me to tease or bully or squeeze his babs. must force him to train up alr... then only after he achieve it, i shall treat him chicken chop. hahahh.. his fav (:
went home & slept. woke up ard 12 & washed up & got ready to go SP [as in s'pore poly nt singpost]. met my baby girl & she brought me into school...ate at KFC & talked. signed up for this music thingy & went off to BUGIS! yey.. looked ard & shopped. wheee retail therapy (: bought accessories for myself & all. tried out that jumpsuit-skirt[??]. i LOVE it!!! but my parents will nag when they see how mini the skirt is. but its SUPER SWEEEEEEEET! i wanna get it. blame myself for being too tall for it. if im like 1.57 or sth i can fit snuggly innit & aint no naggings will be deafin my lobes. but im only 1.65 only for pete's sake! gimme a drift man. sheeeshh..
had really funnnn. i miss my gf loads (: thanks for today sweetie!
ooooooohh im gonna crash SP tmr. shhhh.. rather weird, really, when kids are busy crashing JCs they can never enter during the PAE days, im crashing POLYTECHNICs during the oddest time of the year. yes.. HAHA. its really cool cos both her tutors are on leave & they have breaks all the way. so i'll just come in at ard 1130 & i can hang out with her & her friends. besides, im planning to study there. in their lib cos she said its totally condusive to study. i'll bring econs & maths. hoorah (:
i need an MP3 :( *sulks*
someone get me one? & i'll hug you to death.
a lil reflection while showering junow...
nvm shant elaborate.

I MISS ISKANDAR SO MUCH! omg my heart is aching. 2 days to go julie. just two days. & we can go get that gym bag & bottle together! cheap trills baby, cheap trills.

3 days would fly by fast right? please reassure me that it will. cos ive alr starting to miss him.
sigh
i just blog hopped a couple of random blogs & i just figured that some people dont treasure what & who they have now for who & what they actually are. its like they yearned for more. everytime. they just want the best of the best. & with high expectations, they tend to insult & curse like nobody's business. its horrid how these people react to certain situations. its loatheful. i hate to say this but it totally sucks. i mean, just imagine someone ure very close to, complimented you & all but contradicts. like let say, person A said, "person B is a very liable & trustworthy person. altho he/she is not so handsome/pretty and smart/clever, i still love him/her."
its soothing in the first part but hurtful the latter. like ouch..
oh wells, on a lighter note, the time spent today was really well-organized. its nice to be able to cuddle into someone you've longed to see for 2days. only. yes.. but somehow i realised ive been too dependent on him. no good. only a couple of days & i grow weaker? no.. cannot.. i must stay strong.
its only a 3days 2 night camp julie ..
if self-reassurance wont help then what else? anyways, he bought me this cute kitty bookmark before we went off. its supposed to be a SURPRISE but i was a major bummer & spoilt it for him. what?! just because i pee-ed faster thn usual, doesnt mean i was being a major bummer right? haha.. but i felt bad. got him sth else too.. but i forced him to not look. its just a lil sth frm my heart. hope he likes it (:
& i cant believe i cried before he got up the bus. i dont know why... just too painful.. but its only 3days julie! c'mon wake up & smell the breeze & soak up the sun..
at least i can put my mind off things for awhile. spend some treasured time with my girl aidah..
2ND DOSE OF RETAIL THERAPY TMR!
girls' trip to heaven.
watch out BUGIS, here i come!!
(:
smile julie
ILU.

ahh.. retail therapy was such a heaven. im glad i was born a female. with life like this, who needs school? i think my maths improved alot after spending a gazzillion dollars today. haha.. yeah. just by shopping.. bought loads today.. met darls to get to the army mkt to get his camping stuff... but it seems tt i have the sleeping bag & sunblocks. so gonna lend him mine. after walkin ard tt area, we set down & ate nyummm.. i kinda despise that place but its rather oke lahh.. went bugis after that.
OMG I LOVE BUGIS TRUCKLOADS!
i got myself a hoodie! AGAIN! yesss.. super nice. pretty (: and my black weaved belt & the nice aunty gave me a bargained price (:
*melts*
i love it sooo much.
i was frickin high & kept on disturbin poor isk. he's traumatized everytime i bought sth. but its funnnnn draggin him all over bugisssss (: so nice.
then went kovan to get the cardi bt it looked minah-ish so i scrapped the whole idea of cardis. yuch.
went HG aft tt to get the cream & went back. suppose to meet someone along the way lor. but that someone din turn up. sheeesh. woman..... & on top of that i hadta straighten her hair.. its torturous i tell ye.. cos she had hair thicker than the great Amazon.
*guffaws*
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yesterday was tiring. went out for more thn 12 hours. visited the elders.. well, most of em. get to see my great grand aunt & unc! miss them so much.. but syikin wasznt there... only her bro..& we were like all over singapore lahh..
sengkang, hougang, tampines, woodlands, jurong, bukit batok, chua chu kang, simei, paya lebar..
my bladder was about to burst by the end we reached the last house. drank too much, ate too much, cam-whored too much. lols. i video cam-ed jack jack while he was dancing.. or jiggling his bootie.. so cute..